Getting lost in fantasy is how I get through most of my day. I always imagine myself being a vigilante bringing criminals to justice, a mutant who can walk through walls and a drop dead gorgeous guy who dates lots of hot people ( I am Bi-sexual). Fantasy gets me through my miserable daily existence but the inability to actually live out my fantasies worsens my depression.
In Real life I am an absolute W.O.S. My anxiety is always flaring and it impedes my participation in life as a functional adult. I also lack the knack to be competitive in life. I live vicariously through pessimistic and fatalistic philosophies. I am a complete W.O.S. I deserve nothing but the void, I am burden to the eco-system and this planet does not need my services. I lack purpose and direction. Now let me go to my room, smoke weed,take my meds and cry.
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You are not WOS maybe you are judging yourself to roughly. My idea: go out and be nice to people or dogs or cats or plants. I don’t know why, but it helps. And maybe you’ll find some balance against a part of what is bothering you.
Thank you for your kind words …
I definitely relate to this. I fantasize about things I’m not to make it through the day as well. You sound like me. Good luck dude. All the best
I thought like that for years. It’s a terrible mindset in many ways. It’s self-effacing, so only leads one way: to death.
I think the trick is to realise that people actually LIKE you to take up space. It’s really difficult to deal with someone who feels worthless, because they don’t communicate their needs and wants, so people have to guess all the time and they’re really hard to get to know. Who are they? If all you want is to disappear, who are you?
If there is another voice within you that wants to exist, know that it is legit.