hello.. this is my very first post. I have been lurking since the day that twix started posting. She touched me quite deeply, and made me wish that I could leave, as well. I don’t really want to die, but I have completely forgotten how to live. I also have no energy to live. Since I started lurking I have read almost all the posts, they help me on a daily bases. Each one of you is perfectly unique. I especially enjoy the posts and comments of cordless. You are so careful with your words, and show amazing grace and humility. It will take me a while to open completely, but I find that it could be quite helpful for me, as I find it almost impossible to open up or do most anything in the real world. Thank you to each one for just being who is are, and I am grateful for each one that shares. I already consider each one my friend even though you don’t know me yet. I look forward to sharing laughing and crying in the future.