It’s so hard on me. It really is. I don’t even know how to feel. It’s like everything is a lie.
The guy I mentioned on my last post has been the cause of my problems. It’s all because I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.
Monday night I was feeling so down about my mom and him and just everything (Tuesday was my mom’s death anniversary) and so I texted him. I said “My mom died 7 years ago. You would understand right?”
His exact words were “Ugh I’m sorry I’m not trying to be mean but can you please stop texting me”.
The only reason why I texted him is because his mom died too.
Or at least that’s what I was told. I say this because someone told me him mom didn’t die. I’ve prayed that he didn’t lie about that at least. I told this to a friend of mine and he said that he doesn’t think he lied about that. He said he’s heard him say it on the bus.
It’s just there are some pretty memories..
I don’t know what to do.
I’m so annoyed at myself. I hate myself so much because of this. I have put up with his bullshit for like a month. I’m tired of this yet I want to give him another chance.
Silly me right?