Fear the unknown

I understand where your coming from. There was a period in my life where all my friends where kind of excelling in life. Graduating school, getting good jobs, some getting married and i was this guy that had disability problems, financial issues and depression and it was rough. The more they accomplished the more it made me feel like a loser. But I eventually did get better > not fully better but things improved and I got gainfully employed and pulled myself mostly out of the mess I was in. But I had a couple suicide attempts back then and had to get on meds for depression and so forth. I discovered that 2 things really can get you when you are down. Fear of the Past and fear of the future. If you let those fears get to you then can tear you apart and render you unable to move forward. I learned that the best way to live is in the moment. Use the NOW to better your position in life. As Now is really all you ever have. You got to live in part by faith. If you live in the NOW and believe that things will get better as you make steps to better yourself they usually do. So try not to be afraid of the future. Just believe things will work out if you make the most of your present situation.