Feeling even worse

I sit here and wonder what is wrong with me?

Looking down a the black tunnel and I blindly see

Nothing but darkness and blackness

All I have ever wanted is to just be loved

Women look upon me as some cancer they don’t want

I just want the pain to end

Around the corner of the bend I see the bus.

Just waiting now because soon I will have my ticket.

I have tried to give everything to the relationships I have had

They all have failed  which just makes me sad.

I don’t know if this even will make any sense to anyone

Its becoming harder to even remain lucid anymore.

I just wanted someone that cares and loves me

But all I see is death coming to me.