Going to get food…

That i don’t actually need. But im useless. I’ll never have a meaningful experience with a woman. Why? Part anxiety. Part social ineptitude, mostly consistent negative reinforcement. I am simply not attractive enough. When i did approach women i had to consistently risk and have panic attacks for the opportunity to put a lot of effort into someone who didnt give a quarter of a squirt of piss about me. Id get lied to or disparangingly  “accepted” Occasionally id get a one off pity lay. The fuck could possibly the point. I’ve been working out for about a month and trying to diet. The fuck is the point i have this jacked up complexion and repulsive demeanor and brokeness and complete lack of trust. Im old tired and depressed and suicidal. Im not here because i want to be i have to be. Despite all the comments I’ve been leaving I’m going no comments. These posts usually breed comments that make me feel worse.