Hey guys… long time no see. It’s been months since I’ve been on here…. months spent thinking. Thinking that I was getting better. Thinking that the old Sam was gone. The one whose depression conquered her on a daily basis. The one who ran to her knife for comfort. The one who never knew what a nigt in peace was like.
Wrong.
So damn mother fucking wrong.
Hahahaha life is a cruel joke my loves. It wants you to live but gives you all the cards to die. I hope you are all doing better than me. I hope to see some familiar faces on here soon… I hope I hope I hope for a better future for us all. I’m going to go cut because it’s all I think about… hope you’re all doing okay 🙂
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Is it selfish of me to say I missed you?
well I did. I really missed you around here. I was thinking about you yesterday.
If cutting is going to help, please be safe and keep the cuts clean and dry. I’m so sorry you are in this state. I wish I could do something t help.
youtube.com/watch?v=uDnkiuuY2pA
Here you go^^^^^ A new band I’m currently binging on.
Hazy holy cow I’ve missed you too! I looked for your posts but I couldn’t find anything recent. I hope you’ve been doing okay- I’m sorry this post isn’t very happy but yeah. lemme check out the music
yeah the last time I posted was about a week ago. I’m about the same.
To add to hazy’s comment, yeah, you were missed here. Something about reading “my loves” on a daily basis that i sort of missed… lol. Glad you’re still hanging on, hopefully things will get better again? there’s always ups and downs.
Lol well then I will say hello love 🙂 Sorry I haven’t been around here… I really was doing okay, but I got hit with another low. All I can think about is dying :/
Are you still sob jogging?
Yeah… the lows never help. That doesn’t mean you can reach a high again eventually, and work your way from there.
Fun story: i was wondering wth son of a ***** jogging was. But no, i was horribly wrong. So, back to acronyms 101 it is.
oh yeah I was sob jogging (Mf it’s like crying while running) but now I just don’t have the energy for it 🙁 I feel like I’m crumbling and I don’t know what to do
I injured my neck running and now I’ve replaced marshmallows with jogging.
I love sob jogging!!
@mf: I thought ALL jogging was “son of a ***** jogging”. 😮
@hazy: But what if you tried combining marshmallows AND puffy mints AND jogging?