I will. I’ll care. Plus there are currently a half dozen folks on this thread caring. Pretty much a half dozen jumping into the fray in under fifteen minutes.
How is this not knowing you in person. It is a categoric lie that this isn’t real, this isn’t human. A lie perpetuated by people who don’t understand that this kind of bond, this kind of relationship, the kind of friendships we form here electronically can be just as satisfying, just as meaningful and any flesh and blood bond. You matter, frankly I don’t care what people IRL say or feel about you. I care.
Plus, look at that adorable cat on your pic? Every time I think of you I think of that adorable tuxedo cat.
Hey Cat? I haven’t had time to be introduced to you? If you don’t want to talk now,
Your always welcome to run and play with us here!! We have lots of fun. I would like to get to know you better…..
Stop. Bleeding out is not a realistic way of dying, specially if you’re afraid while doing it. You’re just going to scar yourself for life, which is going to make things worse in the long run.
Whiskered has a point suchcatcat, she battles demons with spatulas in the deep of night. You can come back from this. Wrap yourself up either in towels or bandages if you have them. How deep are the cuts? What did you use to cut your skin with? If it was razors then it might heal and stop bleeding fairly quickly.
Nope, no you aren’t. I will have to disagree you are not doing me a favor by doing this, and I don’t think anyone else around here would say you are doing them a favor either. There are people waiting for you in the future, people who will never have the benefit of meeting you should you successfully go through with this. And you will change their lives. You just don’t see your own worth right now. But you are worth it. You really are.
At the most pessimistic estimation, you aren’t bettering the world at all. At the most pessimistic estimation, you, being only one person out of seven billion, can’t possibly improve the world by any significant degree by dying.
In fact, Contrary to what you insist, I guarantee you that your death will only have negative effects. You will be mourned, I promise you.
You see it that way because you haven’t started walking forward in your life. The further you walk, the more change you make. Just contributing on this forum, reaching out like you did tonight, makes me feel needed. You reached out, I reached back. That is positive, even if you don’t see it that way.
I care, a ton of people here care, your family cares. You say you’re taking initiative, but you’re just preventing yourself from ever having a chance of getting to a better place. Please, please stop the bleeding.
if you have gauze it should help to wrap it in that. if not, some kind of clean, dry fabric should help. if your hoodie sleeves are baggy they’re probably too loose to help stop bleeding. also it helps if you keep your arm(s) raised above the level of your chest. if it bleeds heavily for more than another 10 mins or so, or if it starts pulsing out, call 911 or the equivalent in your country.
Cordless is right. if you have neosporin or something (NOT hand sanitizer, it hurts like hell and will make it bleed longer) use that to help fight an infection.
The mortician would care. I know that sounds unhelpful and even bizarre, but hear me out. My uncle was a mortician. Sometimes he received young people, like you and I (I’m 17), people who still had so much living to do, but were stopped before they ever could. You’d think a person in that line of work would be a stonewall, but that’s not true. They have tear ducts just like us, and whoever sees you on that slab will cry. I know they will. My uncle, he still doesn’t want to talk about it. About the kids that sometimes came in.
Please bandage your wrists. This method is no good. High fail chance. If there’s anything you would like to talk about feel free to vent… I know my post is of no use, just letting you know though
Well wrap it tight and hold your wrists over over your head so that they are elevated above your heart to slow or stop the bleeding. wrap them fairly tight so the pressure stops the bleeding. If the bleeding doesn’t stop in 15 minutes (or at least substantially slow down) you may need stitches or may need medical care. I’m hoping that with this thought the bleeding may slow enough to put you in a safe place.
slitting the wrists doesn’t work as often as you’d think, the bleeding will stop eventually on its own and you might live. please please don’t chance death though, I know you’re strong enough to keep going, even if it’s just to try to heal yourself tonight
“Apply steady, direct pressure and elevate the area for a full 15 minutes. Use a clock-15 minutes can seem like a long time. Resist the urge to peek after a few minutes to see whether bleeding has stopped. If blood soaks through the cloth, apply another one without lifting the first.”
Still bleeding? if yes, really, follow cordless instructions some posts above, or look for help. That might get infected, which really… isn’t what you want at all. If you had an argument with your family it’s likely that they’ll check up on you too so… really, do something about those cuts.
So it scares you the after but not the pain? Not the now? Not the death itself?
I like the posts about he’ll that were made yesterday… truth is we not only don’t know anything about it but we don’t even understand what’s Benn written about it….
Hey Scc,
Don’t hurt yourself to make a point… you are so much more important than any argument you may have with anyone.
You don’t need to proof anything to anyone ever. We know you are valuable and capable.
But your body deserves a lot of care, it is part of you, take care of it. Hurting it is more dangerous than you can notice now… and I know you are aware it hurts
Talk to us, shout here, take out your rage… and let us know what’s in your mind.
I ‘ll try to be here.
im not trying to make you feel like age defines amount of or knowledge of pain, because it doesn’t. i just want to understand your situation and age has a lot to do with the mentality of how pain is registered…
it might seem a little stupid to take advice from someone younger than you – i know i probably wouldn’t – but just hold on a little longer.
i’ve been wanting to let go for years – since i was 11, now that i look back on it. But i had never thought so deeply about suicide till last year.
things don’t get better instantly, they really don’t. not like they say in the movies and youtube videos that seem to sugarcoat everything so the ‘normal’ people will have a better chance in digesting it. nothing is fun about this. nothing is going to be all smiley about your venture into life – which you obviously know since where you are now
things almost ALWAYS get worse. i go to therapy every saturday, crying pretty much every session (there’s only been one that i haven’t cried in, so far). the sessions make me so sensitive, i cry about almost everything. when i talk about my future – college, career, where i’ll end up. i cry listening to what people talk about. i cry about the homework i have to get done. i cry for no reason sometimes.
but i’m giving it all a shot. no matter how much pain it makes me feel. I want to see where i’ll end up. I’ve always been curious. and this is one of the things that provokes me – not knowing everything.
now, I’m not going to pretend that i’m the same as you. i’ve never cut myself cause i couldn’t bring myself to do it. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. i’m just that sort of person.
you telling these people, us strangers, what you feel and how you feel is a step towards something. i personally don’t know what it is. but it’s something different. we all have trouble going to people in our actual life about problems we have. and that’s why we come here. that’s why you come here.
hello im 11. i read every single paragraph, but i still want to die…. im just worried abut my family after i do it. worried about whats happening after i die. school? family? friends? mom’s money? my parents’ divorce? my dogs? my room?
im mostly worried that if i die, all the money my mom spent on me will just be wasted. what should i do? idk why i was born…
I’m sorry you feel the need to take your life, but people do care, they will care, you may not think so, but they do. It’s not too late, wake up your mum, things can be worked out, even if you don’t see it now. It’s never worth taking your life for others for they are transient, you will move on. All those who have commented care about you, suicide is a dark place we all inhabit on SP, but it doesn’t mean we have to attempt, just to know that such feelings can exist in us all, seek help such catcat.
i just wrote this ^^^^^ – basically – essay that might not be relevant but feel free to read it. I’m not very good with using words, but that’s probably the best you’re going to get out me.
Adding this here because it’s likelier that you’ll read it but: with carbon monoxide you can pretty much kill everyone around you without them realizing it. Plus, you can give yourself brain damage (and still live) if you’re found, so give it a lot of thought first, otherwise you’d be risking both your life and your family members.
i want to but im still young and im scared and im afraid my mom will find out and all those. what am i gonna do with my stuff after i die and stuff. cant stop thinking like this.
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DAMN Such catcat….stop. Talk first What is going on???
I’m going to take initiative
How is this taking initiative?
I’m doing something I’ve wanted to do for years, and right now nobody I know is going to care
I will. I’ll care. Plus there are currently a half dozen folks on this thread caring. Pretty much a half dozen jumping into the fray in under fifteen minutes.
Hazy’s right. We all care.
If anyone here knew me in person they wouldn’t care
I think we would care.
I’m pretty sure of it.
How is this not knowing you in person. It is a categoric lie that this isn’t real, this isn’t human. A lie perpetuated by people who don’t understand that this kind of bond, this kind of relationship, the kind of friendships we form here electronically can be just as satisfying, just as meaningful and any flesh and blood bond. You matter, frankly I don’t care what people IRL say or feel about you. I care.
Plus, look at that adorable cat on your pic? Every time I think of you I think of that adorable tuxedo cat.
What happened??
Nothing really
When is a Raven like a writing desk?
Ooooh!
I know this!
Both can produce very few notes and both are “almost never” turned the wrong way around.
Um…
If you wanted Such Catcat to answer that, them please ignore everything I just said.
Hey Cat? I haven’t had time to be introduced to you? If you don’t want to talk now,
Your always welcome to run and play with us here!! We have lots of fun. I would like to get to know you better…..
Stop. Bleeding out is not a realistic way of dying, specially if you’re afraid while doing it. You’re just going to scar yourself for life, which is going to make things worse in the long run.
This is the truth.
It will cause more problems than it seems to solve.
I had to hide my scars for a long time before they finally healed, and it hurt like hell.
Please no.
That rarely works, please don’t do it.
I’ve already started though
Wrap up your wrists in bandages…to stop the bleeding. Give yourself some time.
If you wrap yourself up, you’ll live for certain. Please, catcat. You can come back from this.
Whiskered has a point suchcatcat, she battles demons with spatulas in the deep of night. You can come back from this. Wrap yourself up either in towels or bandages if you have them. How deep are the cuts? What did you use to cut your skin with? If it was razors then it might heal and stop bleeding fairly quickly.
such catcat, like everyone is saying STOP!! and talk.
What can I even talk about, I’m just doing the world a favour by leaving it
Nope, no you aren’t. I will have to disagree you are not doing me a favor by doing this, and I don’t think anyone else around here would say you are doing them a favor either. There are people waiting for you in the future, people who will never have the benefit of meeting you should you successfully go through with this. And you will change their lives. You just don’t see your own worth right now. But you are worth it. You really are.
If I do change anyone’s life it would only be negatively, all I do is make people angry or disgusted
At the most pessimistic estimation, you aren’t bettering the world at all. At the most pessimistic estimation, you, being only one person out of seven billion, can’t possibly improve the world by any significant degree by dying.
In fact, Contrary to what you insist, I guarantee you that your death will only have negative effects. You will be mourned, I promise you.
You see it that way because you haven’t started walking forward in your life. The further you walk, the more change you make. Just contributing on this forum, reaching out like you did tonight, makes me feel needed. You reached out, I reached back. That is positive, even if you don’t see it that way.
i am here too
such catcat, Talk about that! maybe your wrong.
I can’t say anything I haven’t already said
Minimum Catcat you can correct Rocketman’s grammar LOL.
It’s YOU’RE, rocketman you’re.
I’m betting you haven’t said that yet.
What?
Hazy Day Sunflower, your always making funny of me!! 🙂
@rocketman, I know you would be okay with a little light ribbing.
I care, a ton of people here care, your family cares. You say you’re taking initiative, but you’re just preventing yourself from ever having a chance of getting to a better place. Please, please stop the bleeding.
The there isn’t that much blood right now, well when I say not that much I mean for this type of situation, it really stings though.
Do you have it wrapped up? Please wrap it up. It will stop stinging if you wrap it up in something clean and dry.
It’s in my hoodie sleeve, if that counts
Make sure it’s kept clean so it doesn’t get infected.
It will hurt twice as much if it gets infected, and that won’t help anything at all.
if you have gauze it should help to wrap it in that. if not, some kind of clean, dry fabric should help. if your hoodie sleeves are baggy they’re probably too loose to help stop bleeding. also it helps if you keep your arm(s) raised above the level of your chest. if it bleeds heavily for more than another 10 mins or so, or if it starts pulsing out, call 911 or the equivalent in your country.
Cordless is right. if you have neosporin or something (NOT hand sanitizer, it hurts like hell and will make it bleed longer) use that to help fight an infection.
The cuts are very shallow right now, in just snipping at my arm at the moment
Can you wait ?? I’m gonna get a pizza Sode and PopCorn. BRB.
WTF ToTrees, this isn’t a Broadway musical.
The mortician would care. I know that sounds unhelpful and even bizarre, but hear me out. My uncle was a mortician. Sometimes he received young people, like you and I (I’m 17), people who still had so much living to do, but were stopped before they ever could. You’d think a person in that line of work would be a stonewall, but that’s not true. They have tear ducts just like us, and whoever sees you on that slab will cry. I know they will. My uncle, he still doesn’t want to talk about it. About the kids that sometimes came in.
My mother used to be a hairdresser, and sometimes she had to go to the funeral home to do a person’s hair for the very last time.
It was very hard for her as well.
She said she tried looking at it as “It’s the very last kindness I can do for them,” but it was very hard to see.
She took me along with her sometimes, and I’m telling you people DO care, even seeing a stranger that way.
Please bandage your wrists. This method is no good. High fail chance. If there’s anything you would like to talk about feel free to vent… I know my post is of no use, just letting you know though
I’ve really said all I can say, my life is getting worse every day and there’s nothing I can do to stop it
Oh geez, the bleeding just got a lot worse, it’s dripping everywhere now
Can you wrap it tight with a towel or t-shirt?
yeah, I got a towel l, my main concern at the moment is not making a mess
Well wrap it tight and hold your wrists over over your head so that they are elevated above your heart to slow or stop the bleeding. wrap them fairly tight so the pressure stops the bleeding. If the bleeding doesn’t stop in 15 minutes (or at least substantially slow down) you may need stitches or may need medical care. I’m hoping that with this thought the bleeding may slow enough to put you in a safe place.
I’m not sure I want to stop it though
This isn’t the solution though, it really isn’t. I’m not sure what the solution is, but it isn’t this. Not tonight.
slitting the wrists doesn’t work as often as you’d think, the bleeding will stop eventually on its own and you might live. please please don’t chance death though, I know you’re strong enough to keep going, even if it’s just to try to heal yourself tonight
webmd.com/first-aid/how-to-stop-bleeding-from-a-skin-wound
From web md:
“Apply steady, direct pressure and elevate the area for a full 15 minutes. Use a clock-15 minutes can seem like a long time. Resist the urge to peek after a few minutes to see whether bleeding has stopped. If blood soaks through the cloth, apply another one without lifting the first.”
such catcat please keep us updated at least by commenting here or posting so we know you’re ok
I’m not dead, but I feel very strange
It might be the adrenaline wearing off.
I’m shaking and my arm feels heavy
Are you at home?
Is there someone near?
I’m at home, but everyone’s sleeping
Who is home?
Can you wake up someone to talk to?
I don’t want to
How are you feeling now? Can you keep us updated? I don’t want you to feel alone right now.
Who is at home?
It’s just my mum and my sister
How are hoy feeling?
?
Still shaking? You don’t seem scared… I can’t picture you? Did you stop citing? Is your arm numb? Is the towel on it?
I’m still shaking, yeah. I haven’t stopped bleeding though
And what are you planning? It’s a cold question but, what is going to happen now?
I’m just going to wait a bit, until I pass out, maybe I wake up, maybe I don’t
Unfortunately the odds are against me not waking up
Why today?
I got in a fight with my parents, I snapped again. I warned them about this, but they don’t believe me
Then you are most of all mad? Ain’t you feeling scared?
I’m terrified
(I know that’s the theme of the post) and yet…
About what part of it all?
Still bleeding? if yes, really, follow cordless instructions some posts above, or look for help. That might get infected, which really… isn’t what you want at all. If you had an argument with your family it’s likely that they’ll check up on you too so… really, do something about those cuts.
I don’t think I’ll be going to heaven, I’m not even sure if there is an afterlife
So it scares you the after but not the pain? Not the now? Not the death itself?
I like the posts about he’ll that were made yesterday… truth is we not only don’t know anything about it but we don’t even understand what’s Benn written about it….
Ain’t you afraid of tomorrow?
Not really, no, since I’ll probably still be alive. I’ll have to try my more complicated carbon monoxide thing next time
So are you taking care of that cut?
It’s got peroxide on it
Hey Scc,
Don’t hurt yourself to make a point… you are so much more important than any argument you may have with anyone.
You don’t need to proof anything to anyone ever. We know you are valuable and capable.
But your body deserves a lot of care, it is part of you, take care of it. Hurting it is more dangerous than you can notice now… and I know you are aware it hurts
Talk to us, shout here, take out your rage… and let us know what’s in your mind.
I ‘ll try to be here.
Hugs
how old are you?
im not trying to make you feel like age defines amount of or knowledge of pain, because it doesn’t. i just want to understand your situation and age has a lot to do with the mentality of how pain is registered…
I’m 16
im 15.
it might seem a little stupid to take advice from someone younger than you – i know i probably wouldn’t – but just hold on a little longer.
i’ve been wanting to let go for years – since i was 11, now that i look back on it. But i had never thought so deeply about suicide till last year.
things don’t get better instantly, they really don’t. not like they say in the movies and youtube videos that seem to sugarcoat everything so the ‘normal’ people will have a better chance in digesting it. nothing is fun about this. nothing is going to be all smiley about your venture into life – which you obviously know since where you are now
things almost ALWAYS get worse. i go to therapy every saturday, crying pretty much every session (there’s only been one that i haven’t cried in, so far). the sessions make me so sensitive, i cry about almost everything. when i talk about my future – college, career, where i’ll end up. i cry listening to what people talk about. i cry about the homework i have to get done. i cry for no reason sometimes.
but i’m giving it all a shot. no matter how much pain it makes me feel. I want to see where i’ll end up. I’ve always been curious. and this is one of the things that provokes me – not knowing everything.
now, I’m not going to pretend that i’m the same as you. i’ve never cut myself cause i couldn’t bring myself to do it. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. i’m just that sort of person.
you telling these people, us strangers, what you feel and how you feel is a step towards something. i personally don’t know what it is. but it’s something different. we all have trouble going to people in our actual life about problems we have. and that’s why we come here. that’s why you come here.
hello im 11. i read every single paragraph, but i still want to die…. im just worried abut my family after i do it. worried about whats happening after i die. school? family? friends? mom’s money? my parents’ divorce? my dogs? my room?
im mostly worried that if i die, all the money my mom spent on me will just be wasted. what should i do? idk why i was born…
I’m sorry you feel the need to take your life, but people do care, they will care, you may not think so, but they do. It’s not too late, wake up your mum, things can be worked out, even if you don’t see it now. It’s never worth taking your life for others for they are transient, you will move on. All those who have commented care about you, suicide is a dark place we all inhabit on SP, but it doesn’t mean we have to attempt, just to know that such feelings can exist in us all, seek help such catcat.
i just wrote this ^^^^^ – basically – essay that might not be relevant but feel free to read it. I’m not very good with using words, but that’s probably the best you’re going to get out me.
Adding this here because it’s likelier that you’ll read it but: with carbon monoxide you can pretty much kill everyone around you without them realizing it. Plus, you can give yourself brain damage (and still live) if you’re found, so give it a lot of thought first, otherwise you’d be risking both your life and your family members.
That’s why I’m doing it in a tent, in the forest
Are you … still among us ?
such catcat, you ok? Mf’s right about carbon monoxide, I don’t think that’s the way to do it either, but are your cuts ok??
The blood got sticky and closed the wounds
I feel sick now
im glad You r still with us
How r u doing I read your post did u manage to stop the bleeding ? I hope things get better
i want to but im still young and im scared and im afraid my mom will find out and all those. what am i gonna do with my stuff after i die and stuff. cant stop thinking like this.