That’s how I am most of the time, pretty neutral, not happy or sad, just fine. However it’s difficult to be without emotion if/when you interact with individuals who can push your buttons.
I cut off a close relative a few months ago over that reason-don’t need shit-disturbers in my life. However she’s a major member of my family so I might be forced to be civil with her with any family functions/get-togethers. But I’ve dealt with worse people from work so I can handle it.
They say the best revenge is living well-I’m only now starting to realize how true that is as my life is picking up and I will exceed all those around me this year if things keep going as they are for me. I don’t want to jinx myself though-I still have a long way to go before I can pop the champagne cork but it’ll be fun to rub my success in some people’s face who really deserve it and will be green with envy after.
I’m not sure exactly how it started, I think by doing some significant act of callousness. But keeping it up was just a matter of not caring about people. I have close ‘friends’ but any time feelings or troubles in their lives came up I shut the conversation down. ‘I’m here to have a good fucking time and anyone who makes that difficult will leave.’ is pretty much how I keep it up. Also distractions, can’t put enough emphasis on the value of distractions.
Oh @randall. I think its easy to feel and stay feeling nothing. after so many consecutive days of sadness and hopelessness. Then you become numb to yourself and those around you, then the world. Before long you won’t care about anything or the people you hurt by not caring about yourself or them. then your numb. Then you stick with it. I think i reached that level of apathy.
I think its working, but I dont like it. Im just sad and hopeless. Everyday. Everyday I wish someone could help me feel good again. But i havnt met anyone yet to … Spark up my intellect. Or to really engage me enough to want to be like i used to. Now im just half alive
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That’s how I am most of the time, pretty neutral, not happy or sad, just fine. However it’s difficult to be without emotion if/when you interact with individuals who can push your buttons.
I cut off a close relative a few months ago over that reason-don’t need shit-disturbers in my life. However she’s a major member of my family so I might be forced to be civil with her with any family functions/get-togethers. But I’ve dealt with worse people from work so I can handle it.
They say the best revenge is living well-I’m only now starting to realize how true that is as my life is picking up and I will exceed all those around me this year if things keep going as they are for me. I don’t want to jinx myself though-I still have a long way to go before I can pop the champagne cork but it’ll be fun to rub my success in some people’s face who really deserve it and will be green with envy after.
Interesting. How are you able to attain and maintain this? What’s the secret?
I’m not sure exactly how it started, I think by doing some significant act of callousness. But keeping it up was just a matter of not caring about people. I have close ‘friends’ but any time feelings or troubles in their lives came up I shut the conversation down. ‘I’m here to have a good fucking time and anyone who makes that difficult will leave.’ is pretty much how I keep it up. Also distractions, can’t put enough emphasis on the value of distractions.
Oh @randall. I think its easy to feel and stay feeling nothing. after so many consecutive days of sadness and hopelessness. Then you become numb to yourself and those around you, then the world. Before long you won’t care about anything or the people you hurt by not caring about yourself or them. then your numb. Then you stick with it. I think i reached that level of apathy.
Is it working for you? I was recently forced to abandon mine, I hope you’re secure.
I think its working, but I dont like it. Im just sad and hopeless. Everyday. Everyday I wish someone could help me feel good again. But i havnt met anyone yet to … Spark up my intellect. Or to really engage me enough to want to be like i used to. Now im just half alive
I think I will follow your advice