There was a time i was an active user on this sight. tho it was a long ago, i doubt anyone on this sight recognises my user name, i first came here back around 2010/2011. so im old school SP, when i joined the sight was different, we didnt even have things beside our names, nevermind being able to put pictures in beside our names. I came here looking for a suicide partner, someone to go out with. i spent every waking moment reading of ways to die, and i found many easy ways out. but this place gave me the one thing i didnt have. a support network, people who listened and cared and people who helped me get to through the worst of it. i still wonder what happened to those people. is there anyone here from back then who remembers the old timers?
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I’m fairly new here but I can relate to the support u get here it dose help even no I’m still in a dark place
@drowning, im glad your feeling the support. i havent been around much so dont know the new people but im glad they support those who need it. sadly that dark place can be hard to get out of, its a long journey, we can walk with you but ultimately your going to have to take the final steps out of the darkness on your own, a deep, unflinching, self inspection on a regular basis is always a good place to start, just dont allow your depression to bias you, its a sneaky thing, depression
I totally understand Yh it’s a good place here but yeah I guess everyone has to walk on their own really and yes the dark place is hard to get out of u can loose your self in there completely
@drowning. its funny you shoud say loosing yourself in the darkness, its something i didnt realise had happened until i got out of it. i was depressed my whole life, even before i understood what depression was. and i realised because of depression i never got to know me, i never got to know who i am all i knew was what i was when i was depressed. and while thay may sound like a bad thing it wasnt, because i realised that i now get to get to know a new person, i get to find out everything about that person for the first time, and i dont think theres anything more wonderful than getting to discover who you are for the first time as an adult. tho im sure you can imagine my dismay when i found out im a through and though jackass 😉 the point im making is, you may loose yourself a little bit in depression but when you come out the other side you have grown into something beautiful, or in my case manly lol, i wish! haha. think of your depression and your life as a caterpillar before depresson, cocoon while depressed and a butterfly when you break out of the shell of depression
Yeah I get what your saying thanks for the advice I appreciate it that’s were I’m at I’m don’t no who I am if that makes sense haha
well heres the good news, you dont have to know who you are, theres no special age where it all becomes apparent, theres no one who can tell you who you are, you simply get to go through life learning new things about yourself and you change, and you grow and you arent the same person anymore and thats ok because in two years you wont recognise yourself and in ten years your going to laugh about the fact you hung out here and on your death bed your going to look back at all those changes and realise that all the hard times and all the good times still to come made you into one great person and on your death bed your going to finally find out who it is you are, and you my friend, you seem like the type of person that when they get that far, the person who they turned out to be is someone they can be proud of, and at the end of the day thats all that matters, that we lived a life, and became the person we are now and we are proud, dont sweat finding out who you are, most of the fun is in the exploring
I just read what you wrote a couple of days ago was quite inspiring hopefully I make it that far but u put it into words great I must say thanks
I do remember your username and some of your posts. Yup, the site had a makeover. I did sort of joined when you were kind of leaving sp, but still sort of got to see a few of your posts, and also some of the old crew along the years. They come and go, as in posting a thing here and there only to disappear again, so i’m pretty sure some are lurking around and will comment on your post. Other than that… even if it’s for a grim purpose, glad to see you’re still hanging around.
Hey 🙂 @Mf i remember you too, some what of a meeting at the door way to the sight, me leaving and holding the door open for you, with somewhat of a nod of the head, glad to see your still around.. well not glad your here but glad your not gone gone
Procel,
PROCEL!!!!!!! HA HA! MY BUDDY!!! OF COURSE I REMEMBER YOU!!! It’s been that long???? And were still alive!!!!! where did we go wrongah!!!
awww shit, if it isnt the man himself, hows a going bud?? glad to see your still causing mischief!
Shepard lurks around. He was here a few days ago, or maybe a week ago. I was going to point out Mf but he already posted. There is a cloud of lurkers as well. I’m fairly new.
I remember your username, i think i lurked through one of your posts, it feels wrong to be glad to see people are still here but you know what i mean when i say im glad to see your still here 🙂
I’m actually no Sunflower, if you are thinking about Sunflower. I have only been posting here since October. But if you are talking about me then…HI!
Hazy Day Sunflower, you are the new Sunflower! we loved her and we love you! i can’t say i love you more! that wouldn’t be nice!!! but you are unique and original! i’m so glad your here! OK your one of my favorites! Thank you for coming on broad!
There’s a few people like dawg who still drop by from time to time. A few still here with changed names. I text with nozmoking and snuff; they are doing ok.
nozmoking 🙂 i remember him, we didnt have much dealings but i liked hime, hes a good guy, tell him procel is a fan. How about you, how you getting on?
Procel I will tell him. And I’m doing ok ty. I’d say welcome back to sp but it is not really a site you want people to be at eh.
HOLY SHIT PROCEL!!! I never thought I’d see that username again. I’m both saddened and happy to have seen it again.
@thelost, they can come for me but they never get me cause im just too god damn good, fuck the demons in our heads, turns out if you just sit back and watch all they have is a bit of bluster and tiny teeth! Hows it going, you doing ok bud?
Procel, my old buddy come COME BACK! i hope your still watching sp hey theres nothing wrong with being here! just friends talking. 🙂
i think its time i come back a bit more often and help out, this place has too much negativity at times buddy, we got to lite it up!
Yay! A thread with name my old addled mind remembers 😀
I’m still here on rare occasion but not nearly as often as times past. I found SP about the same time period as you Procel 🙂
wandering dawg
Well well well, if it isnt one of the paragons of this place, How you doing buddy?
I belive you did, apologies for the chaotic jackass of old :p Glad your still around man
Procel and dawg I remember both of you from the first time i was on here way back when. Ive left for a couple years come back changed screennames now a few times but how are you guys doing?
hey @deadmanliving What was the old username? i want to see if i can remember, given the amount of alcohol i used to ingest when i came here its doubtful but id like to try :p
hey @deadmanliving What was the old username? i want to see if i can remember, given the amount of alcohol i used to ingest when i came here its doubtful but id like to try :p