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Well, I guess you’re right.
On the other hand, I’ve been planning my exit for a very long time.
I haven’t acted on it (yet). Reasons not quite clear why.
Years ago I realized that I failed at everything I ever tried, and if I would fail at suicide, well, I’d end up worse off than I am now. So THAT idea kept me from acting on actually doing it.
Then in 2013, I went out and bought a 12 gauge double barrel side by side shotgun and one box of 1oz slugs. The gun and the shells are still leaning against the wall in my room. When people ask what it’s for, I tell them, “Home protection.” LOL. But really, why else would I have bought the coach model with the 18″ barrel? hahaha! Barrels to the forehead and squeeze the triggers, exit complete. No failing that one. I hope. Hahahaha.
It’s just an option. Sometimes just having a plan is all one needs to cope with shit.
Well, then there’s my idea of not wanting to have ANYONE find my body. Ever.
No one comes to visit me while I’m living, so I don’t want to be laid out in a casket and have people file by during the wake saying stuff like, “Oh what a shame; he had so much potential,” when the truth of the matter is they say things like, “He’s a fucking worthless loser,” now while I’m still alive. Fuck that shit.
So, maybe when the time comes, I’ll just head to the Rockies. Take a one way hike into the wilderness, climbing as high as I can. 14,000 feet is common in Colorado and California. I can think of no better way to exit life than sitting on a mountain top, drinking a bottle of wine, watching the sun go down, and falling asleep, letting hypothermia take me. Ah, what a beautiful and peaceful way to go.
Of course, if I do wake up the next morning with frostbite, there’s always the shotgun! Hahaha.
Screw the undertaker, let the bears and wild animals eat my flesh! Lord knows we’ve killed enough of them over the centuries! Isn’t it time we gave a little back?