Is it possible to have nostalgia for things you’ve never had or experienced? It’s like, maybe watching television and reading books isn’t such a great idea, because I see their lives, and I want them. Not all the drama, but the freedom, I guess. The friendships. The honesty. I wish I had those things growing up. And I look back on my life so far, and I feel like I’m missing my younger years. Then I remember what shit my younger years were, and I realize I’m missing what I missed. I’m missing the things that other people have. Maybe that’s more like envy, but it’s not like I’m jealous for things I don’t need but rather, for the things I needed and never got–safety, love, guidance, communication. I want another chance. Maybe I wouldn’t have ended up here, ya know? I feel like it’s too late for a lot of things now. I don’t know how to shake this.
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I get that. In fact, when I write stories and such, I like to portray myself into a character. So I can experience things I never lived. From a cynical perspective, I think it’s why we expect to get certain things. To live certain ways. Look at sitcoms, if you talked to your friends, love interest like that…. You’d have none. So, it’s OK to fantasize but remember reality is much different set of rules. On a positive note, it’s this reality that allows you to absorb and enjoy the fantasy.
This happens to me as well. I’ve never been able to understand it but you’ve explained it perfectly. It’s nice to know I’m not alone, I wish I could have another chance as well.
Actually it’s never too late to do (or find) some things in life that you never had, even if at times it doesn’t seem like it. Personally, i’d say it’s taken several decades for me to get a few things that are basic for most people (at a mental level). That said… yup, perfectly normal to be nostalgic of things you haven’t experienced. I often live a lot on my head and daydream situations that then i become nostalgic about, even more so than real ones that have happened… so yup, does happen.