General one step ahead ten steps back by souptool 2/2/2016 written by souptool 2/2/2016 I’m so self destructive things start going good, then I do as much as possible to ruin any progress I make and get myself in a worse situation The end is coming soon, at least I have death to look forward to. backdestructivegoodlookstartstepsworse 3 comments 0 Email Related posts I just want to die 10/21/2020 Tonight I feel like sabotaging tomorrow 10/21/2020 A post to lighten the mood (My first... 10/20/2020 Hydrochloric acid and bleach 10/20/2020 Red and Blue 10/19/2020 Cover story needed 10/19/2020 10/19/2020 hopeless 10/19/2020 I failed 10/19/2020 Just feel like a zombie on auto pilot 10/18/2020 3 comments luka 2/2/2016 - 5:07 am You feel empty. You don’t even feel the pain as you use to. And you mis feeling it. You think trough all your possibilities and come to the conclusion that deaths the only way out. I think of high speed trains, the rails are just by my apartment. I think of it all the time. Log in to Reply souptool 2/2/2016 - 1:28 pm I’m on house arrest my house is 10 k to the nearest 500 pop town and I have no car once it’s done I’m off to the city to find a very tall building I love skydiving, but it’s expensive and they probably wouldon’t let me on without a chute while I’m high on every drug I know how to find.. so I’ll take what I can get when I can get it something about dying on mushrooms molly and heroine seems appealing wish I could dive one more time tho Log in to Reply Covahn 2/5/2016 - 12:23 am Progress is a little like building a tower out of blocks, sometimes we knock it down for whatever reason. You have no reason not to take a deep breath and start again, you were doing well and we both know you can get back into that positive flow Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.