Okay, so maybe this is a bit unfair of me to ask at this moment in time…..as I haven’t never posted till tonight. BUT:
Have any of you ever really felt numb? I thought I had and I had to some rearguards….however tonight and as of this week, I realize something more.
And pls forgive me ahead of time, I have been drinking, but this is something I have found this past week…and I am sitting here…still waiting for my CHURRO!!! As if anyone can hear me, while the band is playing loud and I have turned down several offers of dances….I should probably take someone up on one at some point….IDK…..ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNYWHOOOOO……
Have you honest ever really felt numb? I mean so much so that nothing and I mean nothing even brings pain? I have found over the past week that I am no soulless and I am perfectly okay with that, I actually like it….if I am honest.
I’ve been thinking over things that would normally bring me to tears and yet….nothing…nadda….I am just….well, I am just. Simple as that. Granted, I am tipsy not drunk…god how I do wish…lol God….hehehe….how many on here can laugh at that one?
Again…..I am totally numb so much so, that I actually sliced and diced myself up earlier and felt….you guessed it, nothing. I like this. This is what I think being human is. I think all those other little M*F*kers out there is human. I think the people that honestly feel, find pain in places they never knew…we are the “special” ones. the ones born in the wrong place wrong galaxy, wrong time. And now, I guess, I have joined the humans……interesting….isn’t it? Or do I only think that due to my rum that was once in the shot glass before me?
Either way….I am going to join the party….for awhile…then retire to my room for a nice “nap” lol and wake before the sunrises for coffee. My last day is coming, I am so very excited and yet…I am just that calm.
Have a goodnight SP. We are one. We are the choosen, whether we like it or not.