The constant thought of ending my life is tearing me down. I wish to end it, but somehow I can’t.
The thought of suicide keeps coming back and slowly becomes stronger and stronger.
My friends and my family have abandoned me. I never bothered to look them up. Now I want to look them up, they don’t have time for me :'(
I don’t care anymore whether I live or die and now I am dealing with my survival instinct. I wonder when I will find the strength to finally end it all.
All the harassment cost me my friends and the people doing the harassing and stalking have even set my brother up against me.
Do I sound like a schizophrenic now? Do I sound psychotic? Are you tempted to say: “Hey! You should visit a psychiatrist and trust your brother.” Truth is, he said STRAIGHT IN MY FACE WITH AN EVIL SMILE: “Can’t get anything done?”
This life hasn’t got anything or anybody worth living for anymore. However, my survival instinct is too strong at the moment. I just don’t want to continue anymore. I’m so tired of living. What’s worth living for? My ideas? All of them have already been done somewhere. Being of service to others? A bunch of ungrateful addicts, bums or psychiatric patients who can’t even utter a word of gratitude for a cup of coffee?
People don’t care about me, they just want me dead. Well, perhaps they’re going to get their way soon. I’ll finally be rid of all the slander and harassment.
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Don’t care about people who don’t care about you.
Don’t try to Change people, try to change yourself so that you may seek the things you admire and yearn for.
Be thankful to God for not giving you up to any life-or-death situations you’ve faced.
Search for peace, love people who love and forget the haters.
Find pleasure in every little thing u do ,
I know this, I’ve been through this, and I think maybe you can make your way out
I hope you find this helpful,
Don’t care about people who don’t care about you.
Don’t try to Change people, try to change yourself so that you may seek the things you admire and yearn for.
Be thankful to God for not giving you up to any life-or-death situations you’ve faced.
Search for peace, love people who love and forget the haters.
Find pleasure in every little thing u do ,
I’ve been through this, and I think maybe you can make your way out
I can relate to that I’m also trying to get the strength to try again iv had enough the world isn’t a nice place anyways
You are having a really difficult time this morning. It has been a rough month all around apparently. I feel your pain, really I do. Keep talking to us here, it makes it a little better, there are a lot of people standing in your shoes.
Heard it’s something about being “the heart of winter” with this month that makes it rough for many.
Maybe so. Right around this time of year when I lived in New England I typically became really down and felt very dark. Like the summer would never come. Here is Texas it is a lot better as I can be outside in the sun most of the year. I am much like my namesake, I need sun and fresh air or I just fall apart. I’m not even looking forward to the Bluebonnets today, which are just around the corner. The life has been sucked out of me these last two weeks. You’d think that my husband finding work would make me feel a little better, but truthfully it hasn’t. It just starts the countdown clock to when he will be unemployed again.