I am so tired of feeling depressed. So tired of running away. Just so tired.
I wanna do something about it for once. Despite my love for death, I can’t help yearning for change.
I have loved death for a long time now and I think it’s time to move on.
But in the same time, I don’t want to forget about death. I’ll still love death but I’ll try living better than this.
My life from now on can consist of ups and downs. But I’ll try facing it like a boss. Because you know what? I am the boss of my own life. And I don’t want to lose to life.
I’ll try explaining myself to my parents in hope of them helping me. I’ll try being a lot nicer to myself. There may still be urges to hurt myself but it’s totally cool. Or I dunno. LOL. I am being so indecisive.
So umm… As I was saying, I won’t entirely change myself since that can give me a shock and might eventually lead me to depression again. But I’ll try living my days a lot better.
So long for now.
To my SP friends, so long. Cheers.
(I’ll miss a lot of people here so I’ll come once in a while to check on your lives.)