I’ve learned to accept that in life, there are forces at work that we may never be able to comprehend.
I don’t have enough arrogance to believe that everything can be logically explained. What is the human brain? And what authority do its observations have? Exactly.
Recently I was going on this trip by plane and I just had a terrible feeling about it beforehand. I still went, because I was too chicken to come clean about not wanting to go because of my bad feeling. Anyway, nothing happened.
I’m thinking maybe it was the fact that I felt I was finally making progress, and suddenly valued my life, so I had to catastrophize.
Are you sure that your brain is right every time it says “I have a bad feeling about this”?
That said, I still sort of agree with you. I think I was wiser before I dissolved my brain in chemicals. More intuitive. Whatever.
As always, you’ve raised a really good point. My intuitions aren’t always right. I hope they’re wrong about this.
What do you mean, though, by “dissolved your brain in chemicals”? Drugs? Or psych-meds? Either way, I’m very sorry. That’s got to make you feel pretty helpless. 🙁
I have to second this, and thanks for bringing that out muspelhem. Sort of guessing that something i felt earlier has a similar connotation than what you refer to regarding to your trip. That “something bad is going to happen” feeling… doesn’t necessarily mean that something bad is going to happen, maybe we often confuse “bad” with “different”.
whiskered-fish,
“I know I have a bad future in store.” everyone has that! deal with it when it arrives, in the mean time enjoy your life. your paying for something that hasn’t happen yet.
Not everybody does. I know everybody dies, but that’s not what I’m talking about.
I’m sorry rocketman, I just find myself incapable of being able to relax or enjoy things for too long with such a weighty yoke on my neck.
But I appreciate your advice. Hope you’re doing fine.
i’m not perfect i think the same way, but you need to take a break from dwelling on it, how am i doing? same as you i bet! ha ha! maybe worst!! but we got to hang in there right! that’s what we do 🙂 tonight took take my mind of killing myself 🙂 i’m making nachos, first time! nacho Doritos chips, taco meat, sour cream and cheese, plus salsa. probably heartburn city! but that’s how a take a break from my worries for a little bit.
whiskered-fish,
i like that ” took take my mind of killing myself!!!”” ha ha took!!! you see how funny life can be! i sound like lassie with a mouth full of shit!!! 🙂
Whiskered,
It is a sensation. I know it feels true and that it is hard to deal with sensations, like when someone feels s/he needs to binge, or cut, or fast, or, like when one has to do things in a determined way or else the world will end. Those are parts of our heads that make us think things are what they are not. Things that are now natural for our body and our minds… and we all have those kinds of obsessions in one or another level (I may feel a library with examples)
When ever it happens, you must recognize it as what it is: a disfuctional thought.
We can’t blame ourselves for the unconscious thoughts that attack our heads all the time. We can only be responsible for those thoughts we decide to keep. But it must be a decision, our obsessions don’t count.
Think about it, recognize it, let it be, let it go. Draw about it, write about it, sing about it… make it live outside your body, but remember, it doesn’t have power over you. It is a thought as any other one.
You are strong. Belive it.
I will keep on thinking about this…
I think they are helping, believe it or not. I’ve come to realize that their effects will not be immediate. But if 2+2=4, then they should work.
Haha, no spatula wielding as of late. That doesn’t mean D’s been quiet though. If anything he’s gotten so much more annoying. Guess he figured out that he now has a very small window of opportunity to work with if he wants to drag me to Hell. Demons are paid on commission, after all.
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I can relate. But tbh I have no idea how one would know.
Know about what? The future?
Yeah
I don’t either.
I’ve learned to accept that in life, there are forces at work that we may never be able to comprehend.
I don’t have enough arrogance to believe that everything can be logically explained. What is the human brain? And what authority do its observations have? Exactly.
Recently I was going on this trip by plane and I just had a terrible feeling about it beforehand. I still went, because I was too chicken to come clean about not wanting to go because of my bad feeling. Anyway, nothing happened.
I’m thinking maybe it was the fact that I felt I was finally making progress, and suddenly valued my life, so I had to catastrophize.
Are you sure that your brain is right every time it says “I have a bad feeling about this”?
That said, I still sort of agree with you. I think I was wiser before I dissolved my brain in chemicals. More intuitive. Whatever.
As always, you’ve raised a really good point. My intuitions aren’t always right. I hope they’re wrong about this.
What do you mean, though, by “dissolved your brain in chemicals”? Drugs? Or psych-meds? Either way, I’m very sorry. That’s got to make you feel pretty helpless. 🙁
I have to second this, and thanks for bringing that out muspelhem. Sort of guessing that something i felt earlier has a similar connotation than what you refer to regarding to your trip. That “something bad is going to happen” feeling… doesn’t necessarily mean that something bad is going to happen, maybe we often confuse “bad” with “different”.
Haha. Well I certainly welcome different.
whiskered-fish,
“I know I have a bad future in store.” everyone has that! deal with it when it arrives, in the mean time enjoy your life. your paying for something that hasn’t happen yet.
Not everybody does. I know everybody dies, but that’s not what I’m talking about.
I’m sorry rocketman, I just find myself incapable of being able to relax or enjoy things for too long with such a weighty yoke on my neck.
But I appreciate your advice. Hope you’re doing fine.
whiskered-fish,
i’m not perfect i think the same way, but you need to take a break from dwelling on it, how am i doing? same as you i bet! ha ha! maybe worst!! but we got to hang in there right! that’s what we do 🙂 tonight took take my mind of killing myself 🙂 i’m making nachos, first time! nacho Doritos chips, taco meat, sour cream and cheese, plus salsa. probably heartburn city! but that’s how a take a break from my worries for a little bit.
That stuff sounds like heaven on a plate. Do let me know how you faired on the heartburn front. 🙂
whiskered-fish,
i like that ” took take my mind of killing myself!!!”” ha ha took!!! you see how funny life can be! i sound like lassie with a mouth full of shit!!! 🙂
Whiskered,
It is a sensation. I know it feels true and that it is hard to deal with sensations, like when someone feels s/he needs to binge, or cut, or fast, or, like when one has to do things in a determined way or else the world will end. Those are parts of our heads that make us think things are what they are not. Things that are now natural for our body and our minds… and we all have those kinds of obsessions in one or another level (I may feel a library with examples)
When ever it happens, you must recognize it as what it is: a disfuctional thought.
We can’t blame ourselves for the unconscious thoughts that attack our heads all the time. We can only be responsible for those thoughts we decide to keep. But it must be a decision, our obsessions don’t count.
Think about it, recognize it, let it be, let it go. Draw about it, write about it, sing about it… make it live outside your body, but remember, it doesn’t have power over you. It is a thought as any other one.
You are strong. Belive it.
I will keep on thinking about this…
That’s some really compelling advice, Mp. I’ve read it three times over now so it sticks in my head. Thank you.
Whiskered: how is your medicine working out? The supliments you are taking? Any spatula welding mayhem lately?
I think they are helping, believe it or not. I’ve come to realize that their effects will not be immediate. But if 2+2=4, then they should work.
Haha, no spatula wielding as of late. That doesn’t mean D’s been quiet though. If anything he’s gotten so much more annoying. Guess he figured out that he now has a very small window of opportunity to work with if he wants to drag me to Hell. Demons are paid on commission, after all.
So that is why they are such insufferable douchebags. Of course!