i fucked up my arm last night. it still feels tingly and weird (and painful), and i think it’s still bleeding… i’m so fucked if i need stitches. i just wanted to see the blood drip. i didn’t want to mess my arm up like this.
in other news, i haven’t seen or spoken to my family in a week, and even though it was my choice to isolate myself, i still feel like crap. hearing them laugh and get along just fine without me, no concern whether i’m dead or not in this tiny room… i mean, this is what i wanted. i don’t want to feel sorry for myself. so my family doesn’t care? so what? i’d rather that than have my brother screaming at me and my mom crying about what a disappointment i am. i really should just leave. they won’t care. i haven’t eaten. i can’t focus on schoolwork. i want to die.
shit. i’ve run out of bandaids.
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Urgh I’m feeling like shit right nowwwww
SIDHFIASUHFDIASU I gotta cut I have no space.
I have a fever right now and I hate myself so much I don’t know why I am being a selfish prick right now and writing this in your replies but I need a friend .
I hate myself so much i realize that sick, i am physically incapable of moving, eating , talking or walking or forming any cominucation with anyone, and yet I realize, than on regular days I am the same “sick” monster I am right now.
I am a damn problem.
But you seem like a person I’d love to talk to?
Would you mind exchaning emails?
(PS: SORRY FOR THAT RANT I JUST CAN’T EVEN BREATHE RIGHT NOW. X.X 🙁 )
If Band-Aids aren’t helping to stop the bleeding, here is FirstAid advice from the WebMD site:
Get a towel and apply continuous direct pressure to the area. Hold it down firmly until the bleeding has stopped.
Clean the area with warm water and gentle soap.
Apply antibiotic ointment.
Cover with sterile bandage.
If you worry about someone else noticing that there’s a bloody towel, rinse it out yourself with very cold water. Cold water rinses blood out of cloth a lot better than warm water.
If this is something that happens a lot, maybe you could keep a private personal container of First Aid supplies for yourself and hide it somewhere in your room.
It could include a dark towel (dark enough to hide any stains that might remain),
A box of large bandaids,
Some antibacterial soap,
And some antibiotic ointment.
(I apologize if any of this is stuff you already know or are already doing. Just trying to help. 🙂 )
Also, I would have copied and pasted the link to the WebMD site but whenever I try posting links, my comments get locked in moderation and never come out. 🙁
Also some other useful things for the first aid kit.
Wound closure strips, gauze pads, the tape stuffs (can’t remember what it’s called), and the soft wrap stuffs is nice sometimes too…… Also I’m sure you already know this, but running cool water over the wound can really help stop the bleeding, and like Cordless said applying pressure on it with a towel also really helps, once you get the bleeding to stop covering it is a good idea as it will make it harder for your sleeves to rip the scabs off (covering it with a band-aid or whatever)