How can we all be so sad? Do you guys actually feel connected ? I see some old and some new, do we really help, or prolong doomed options?
I’m a drifter I’m come and go. . .
Cause I one day I find hope and the next dispair…
Which I believe is worse, my duel personalites are tearing me apart…
Where are you? Deep in your hole climbing or looking down?
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i believe i’m deep in the end. from here it looks like i’ll never get out.
Is it all dark? Or is there something holding you here?
I was actually just thinking about this, that to me at least, a major theme in being content in life is to feel connected/understood/accepted..and when this begins to stray we wander into depressive territory. The difficult thing is once you become overly enveloped in a depressive state, it’s more and more difficult to connect with the general outside population, hence more depression, and the cycle magnify. So I don’t know, I was thinking for my own experience at least, being here, being able to honestly open up to people without fear or anxiety of being reprimanded and ultimately being understood does make me feel more connected, and thus a little better about life. It feels good to be honest.
Knightofdoom,
Neither one day i fell into the hole AWWWW!! And landed on my ass! i said i got to get the fuck out of this hole! and then i start grabbing the walls working my way up! then AWWWWWWW! BACK TO THE BOTTOM!!! Everyday i try to get out of the fucking hole. if i ever get out i’m going to post signs all around it! WATCH OUT FOR THE FUCKING HOLE!!! 🙂
I decided not to be sad today. Some things went wrong today. But somebody paid my tab over at the bar so I decided to just be happy about it and overlook the other shit. Of course a good beer buzz can really help at times. As for me I have no idea what the future holds and I can understand why people have anxiety over it. But I decided to just have fun each moment. Just enjoy right now and if I have to end it sometime later then I will. If not then I wont and will just keep on keeping on. I guess I have developed the fuck it > just keep going attitude and its working for me. LOL
headupunderadarkcloud,
I get it, I’ve found the trail inside my mind that lead me into myaelf, this whole time I pushed people away boys, good friend that went different way who didn’t understand me and just told myself I was searching for myself…every since I was 13 and loss of self came to me it been downfall after doubt in who I am..I’ve been trying to find who I am..with nobody around me…each time I get stuck in this beautiful day dream where everything is glossed with luminous light..I believed only I could see it cause I’d like to sit alone in complete silence and dream, I was convinced no one understood, how beautiful this world is..I still don’t believe I see thing on media but never really met someone I could share this beautiful silent dream of angel hymns…so it silly to believe anyone could understand my darkness .. but I pushed anyone away..even the sad people.
Rocketman, hehe that made me laugh, I hope my hole is next to yours so you could tell me jokes through the walls… and if you get out just through a rope down, to climb or hang myself with hehe.
Phantomcitizen, I’m glad you kept it postive enough to make it to the bar… I wish made it to the bar, instead sulked…I did happen to enjoy a lovely swim the bitter cold water wakes up my soul..I imagined I was a eternal light traveling through water.
no one understands :/
Knightofdoom, Laughter is the way out of the hole!!! or is it?
Knightofdoom: Rocketman is that you!
Rocketman: yeah! i’m in the hole next to you!
Knightofdoom: tell me a joke! so i can get out of here!! 🙂
Rocketman: OK why did the chicken cross the road?
Knightofdoom: i know that one! because he had nothing better to do? 🙂
Rocketman: no to get to the other side!! ha ha! do you get it!! ha ha! 🙂
Knightofdoom: i don’t get it!!! 🙁 hey i’m almost out!!! just another foot ugh!!!
Rocketman: OK how’s about this one! Do you know why we use capital letters?
Knightofdoom: no why? i’m almost out! just a couple more inches ugh! ugh!
Rocketman: take a sentence like” I helped my Uncle Jack off a horse!” now take out the capitals
Knightofdoom: OK ” i helped my uncle jack off a horse!” HA HA HA!!! 🙂 OH SHIT! I’M LOSING MY GRIP!! I’M LAUGHING TO HARD!!! AWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!
I guess it works both ways some people can find hope in sharing what they are going though with other people and some people just want to express what they are feeling before they go I’m deep in the hole looking down