suicide note

i am fed up with my life. i loose everything in my lyf, i lost my 1st love he dumps me after that i lost my 2nd love u can say 4 years relationship break up. he dump me very badly cant tell u everything, but my 2nd love is my real love. i am tottaly break. and my brother left me. i am doing mca. but can’nt concentrate on my studies due to this i have lots of supplies. and now i lose my job. my mom alwyz teasing me because i am not inteligent and also that because i have bf, not bf he dump me. i want to kill my self. sometime i atempt the sucide bt its my bad luck that alwyz i fail to take sucide. i think my life is meaningless.  i am alone. nobody wants to me, every one hate me. i have no friend. i don’nt know why i have’nt. i have taken some pills but it was’nt worked, jumped in a river but does’nt work. my mother thinks even my brother also, that i am characterless girl. both r think …..i have lots of bf, and heaving physical relationship with many. she alwyz tounting me. but frankly speaking i love only my Parteek. i have physical relationship with him even i got twice time pragent. when i got + result he told me this is not write time so abort this. so i lose my babbies. everything which i love….i loose, so there is no mean to live.