Dark hole

When uv been depressed and suicidal for a long time you start to embrace the darkness finding ways to stay alive in the dark fog by self harming changing one pain for another only thing that helps emotional pain and thinking of death can calm ones active mind thinkin of a method iv got 3 methods to choose from OD not to keen on hanging might need to think more about needs planning and drinking poison need to do research or try the wrist

i don’t do highs and trains think it’s brutal shotgun to the face is the dream I feel so calm talking about death I ain’t planned it but when I do it’s got to be flourless

there demons in the darkness   They know you wear a mask everyday how it hurts to smile and how you hurt your self on the outside trying to kill the demons on the inside I no I’m at the bottom on the black ?