Goodmorning…

It’s morning this side and I’m on my way to the hospital. I haven’t been on here for a while now. I missed you guys.

Anyway, thought I’d share something that happened to me last Saturday.

My parents organized for our church members to come to my house and pray for me. My entire family knows about my condition now and they are very supportive. Anyway, so these guys were praying. In that moment, I had flashes of my brother and the people who killed them who were also proclaimed christians. I guess this fucked up my head a little and I had a panic attack. Church people thought I was possessed by a demon and they taking it out or something. It took forever for me to convince them to take me to our local clinic. Being a medical student and all, I got to the clinic, told the nurses I’m having a panic attack and told them how to treat me. They were pissed. They were like, who the hell does this little ***** thinks she is, telling us how to do our job. I hadn’t told them I am medical student then.

I was managed and I was okay. But now my parents seem to think I’m possessed by a demon and I need an exorcism. They are dragging me to church this Sunday. I will have to keep a clear head and make sure I don’t panic when they all pray for me then.

I find this very funny actually. I’ve been laughing about it the whole week.

Update Time.

I left home. I’m staying at the student resident now. I still feel like shit. I haven’t cut in 9 days now. I love my therapist. He is awesome. He was also one of our lecturers. I’m done with my psychiatric rotation. Passed the damn thing. Whew. One down, five more rotations to go and I will have the title of doctor by the end of this year. The rotation I’m doing now doesn’t even give me time to be depressed. I’m so busy, studying all the time, I have no time to nurse my depression. In fact, I’ve even forgotten about it, which is a good thing. Also the reason I haven’t been on here in a while.

Well, time for me to go to the ward and have the superior doctors make me feel like an idiot.

I’ll be seeing all you SP’ers when I’m able to catch a break. Again, I missed you.

Ylem is out!!!