well apart from being able to feel physical pain today which is not really normal for me still shocked usually completely numb anyways struggled to get up and to college but I did but my teacher is saying basically if I pass the next test I will be done thank fuck but I really don’t no what to do with myself when I finish more time on my hands and mind isn’t good but I ain’t got no goals or plans no interests now what ? Like I said before I didn’t really plan living this long I’m a decade over due Now were is my path leading ?
Hand enough of walking blind
how’s everyone ? done my lil mental vent for the day
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what up d… I am in the midst of a good few days… it’s really good to c you
What’s up man to be honest my last couple days have been smooth aswell so it’s weird nice to hear from u man how’s things
I’m doing OK today. I haven’t done all that much today other then shower, eat,rest and surf the web. Its unusual for me to not do much like this but oh well. Once on a blue moon I do nothing for a day.
Yeah I understand your rant. I didn’t expect to live this long at 43. I figured that I would be gone in my 30’s the day I turned 40 I was shocked I made it this far. Now 3 more years have squeaked by and well. I still kind of wish it would be over for me. I mean I am a disabled guy.. and my disability is something I will have to always deal with so no matter how hard I try my life in comparison to other people is painful and limited and it sucks. But well I am trying to plu along as best as I can and hopefully things will get better. I hope things get better for all of us.
Hay phantom nice to hear from u man I hope things get better for all of us to May I ask what’s your disability ? Just wondering
drowning, thanks for asking. i’m at my usual, abysmal low. just so tired and weak from malnutrition/sleep deprivation. i’m a shadow of my former self. getting my affairs in order and getting ready to make the big leap. it will be such a relief to be out of this reality. i can’t help but feel that this past year of illness is payback for bad shit i’ve done in my life. excuse the teen-style typing, i’m actually 56 but too tired to bother with caps, etc.
It’s fine I understand I use the easy type thing to
Depressed.
still feelin yucky
life is yuckky
don’t see why i should stay living
if nothing else just so you can give me a hard time … and to watch the new choir boy conor
sorry for giving u a hard time. was just fun making axe murderer, pirahna-biting, jokes. just too easy lol
I know…and you were good at it…have to admit, was nice to feel special for a change
I wish it was easier to commit suicide
I wish it was easier to self-abort as a baby.
You are loved, and we are proud of you
Haha self abort that did make me laugh the site would proberly be empty lol
Me too! 🙁
Yeah suicide isn’t as easy as I thought but I guess when and if the pain gets to much will make one try harder I guess
Just dragged myself out of bed. Thinking of going back.
Oh really what time isit in Texas hazy