Dear soon to be Ex
… or perhaps you’re already an ex, perhaps it ended a long time ago but I’m too oblivious to see it. but congratulations you acted like an ex now I’ll make you one.
Why?…
Because I’m DONE, I’m done accepting any of the scrap of attention you deem worthy to throw my way. I’m done hope you’ll text me first just so I know you were thinking about me. I accept I’m the one who screwed up by changing the rules by falling in love with you, but you should have realised I could never not love with the very essence of me.
But the sad part is I’ll never have the courage to send this to you.
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standing with you in your sorrow..
I don’t see it as sorrow more like finally waking up. It’s liberating. I’ve read somewhere “worse than being alone, is being alone while you are with someone “
yes i have been there.. being alone with someone… and while i dont like to be around many people i long for that “other half”.. i still believe, even if it is delusional…
Haha join the club, I’m a hopeless romantic. But I don’t think it’s delusion, if I’ve got the capacity to love someone unconditionally I have to hope others can too
being a hopeful romantic is truly the only thing that keeps me going… i love being in love and making someone else happy..would have to be someone like us tho..
I asked for a divorce. He said no. On to plan B. If you know what plan B is please let me know. I pretty much am living a parallel existance.
Lol wtf? You can’t say “no” to a divorce. What year is this?
Sure you can.
Hds: “I make you miserable. You need to be happy. I can’t change I tried so I think we should just get divorced. Then you can go and be happy no strings attached.”
Hds husband: “I’m too old to start over and no one would want me. I don’t want to move. No I’m not letting you divorce me. Is tjis because I don’t clean the house when you boss me around and tell me to. ”
Hds. “…..”
Maybe i just woke up in a meh sort of mood, but i would have replied GTFO, lol. I’m still sort of surprised at his completely blatant way of saying no tho.
@mf: :p
Isn’t it dinner time where you are mf? Lol.
Punch to the face taken, LOL. FTR it’s only afternoon tea time 😛
I agree with everything that you wrote and i hope this indeed helps you improve your life and find better things for you, but i have to point out this: “you should have realized I could never not love with the very essence of me”… nope, just no. You should have told him this, people are not mind readers. Not that i’m excusing him for the lack of attention he gave you, but communication is the key, specially to a relationship with set boundaries that can’t be kept.
I guess that’s true, I should have told him, but I was scared to tell him so I guess I accept my part in our relationship breaking.
Never too late to tell him. Nothing to lose at this point. You are after all on a suicide support site. I’m not trying to be glib. I’m dead serious.