Like being set on fire and tossed out of a window.

I’ll be honest i don’t like being on this site. Don’t get me wrong it isn’t you guys its just i rather not feel the need to post. I’m sure that you all can relate. No one wants to live in depression. That said I come back because I have these moments of pure depression. I try to tell myself in these moments i should accept that I feel this way and stop beating myself up for being beaten by life. I work all but 1 day in a culture full of depression triggers. This feeling is as natural as getting sick from a peanut allergy after unwittingly eating peanuts. It happens…. but at this moment i feel like setting myself on fire and jumping out of a building. I’m tired of being fat ugly poor alone and unnecessary. Im tired of doing all i can to change these things to no avail. Im tired of giving up just to fight my way back to square one.