I’m really bad at taking emotional pain, not that people think about that when they give me a reason to be emotionally hurt. It’s really funny honestly, how all of it plays out. I had let a friend of mine close, like really close… We have only really been together a couple weeks, but I’ve had the crush on him and he on me for the LONGEST time… So, ask me, what did I receive somewhere between Psychology 1101 and Accounting 1100 tonight? The “I think we rushed it, we should just be friends” message!
It shouldn’t hurt this bad, but fuck y’know? He promised me, and I guess because we were friends I believed it… I really trusted him and it hurts a ton. I wish I wasn’t so weak about these kinda things, but I am. I try, get thrown to the ground, then pick myself up and dust myself off. Every. Damn. Time. It’s getting hard for me to want to bounce back. How long until the ball goes flat?
Anyways… How do I deal with emotional pain?
Well, I’m pretty sure I’m going to get a couple new piercings (have mom do them, they’re just going to be in my ear.) Maybe cut my hair in a mohawk (it’s already side shaved on one side) and or redye it. Because, hey why not?!