I wish things could have turned out different. That’s been something I’ve been saying a lot. It’s just that…recently I’ve been pretty emotionally numb. I feel as though I don’t have a heart. Not in a ‘vain teenager hate the whole world’ kinda way, I just can’t seem to empathize the way everyone else seems to. I feel unintentionally cruel. To make matters worse, my nightmares started coming back.
I don’t know if I want to make another attempt yet, or keep waiting.
4 comments
Hi keep waiting like someone told me on here there is alway tomorrow to do it so why not wait
Yeah, true. Death isn’t going anywhere is it?
What nightmares are you having? As for emotionally vacant, I have days like that too. Like you, they disturb me more than rock bottom or manic as hell.
Its about eyes and hands. It doesn’t sound bad at first, but I’ll just keep walking and have all these eyes staring at me and hands grabbing at me until I can’t breathe. It’s usually the same every night, and I shook them off for a while. And yeah, I think it’s worse to not feel anything at all then to feel something. It’s like I’m not even human anymore. Just a robot given the gift of life.