This hurts my heart more than anything in the world. He graduated from high school, he’s 20 yrs old he knows this society is bullshit and he doesn’t want to work his life away to get nowhere. The part that really scared me was when he was talking about taking other people out with him.
He is upset with my cousin because he uses my grandmother. She has always been an enabler. She let’s him sell her script of Narco to get money but he doesn’t even need it! He takes pictures of himself holding up tons of cash and fronting like he’s working and all that. No, that’s my grandmother’s money he made by selling drugs. My grandmother is a stupid enabler and my mom shouldn’t have reproduced.
Even my brother told her she shouldn’t have had him if she had no plan for his future. He’s only 20 so I tried to tell him to focus on himself and get a job, but he wouldn’t even have a way to get there. And let’s face it, it would be some shitty job working for peanuts. It’s just so scary because he is so definite in his decision. He said he has no fear. He showed me the gun he’s going to buy. If my little brother dies, I will kill myself. He means the world to me and I’m so sorry he sees no future. My life hasn’t been that great either. 32, still living at home, no boyfriend, no job because of mental illness. I know I should go too, but I will be inconsolable if he does.
I have a therapy appointment tomorrow and I’m going to see what he says. My brother needs help. The least I can do is try to get him professional help. We cried together last night and I died inside thinking of him no longer being here. He said March is when he’s doing it.
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I ready your post sorry to hear that I’m not sure what to say but u should tell someone about your brother if not really fair if he wants to die taking innocent people with him
I think the main person he has in mind before killing himself is taking out my cousin for using our grandmother. Then posting all the money on Facebook like he’s a big baller or something. He really hates him right now. I hope he calms down. I fear my family will be destroyed.
My cousin posts the money on Facebook and lies like he’s something he’s not I mean. My brother despises him.
Maybe you could try talking him round it’s wrong for your cousin to do that but he don’t need to die for it tho it puts you right in the middle of it
I think you should talk to somebody about this. I don’t know what part of the world you live in but where I live if a person has been talking about hurting themselves and or other people you can call the police and they will come and take them in for a psychiatric evaluation. I think you should look into something like that before he goes off and hurts anybody and himself.
I live in US and I see a psychiatrist and therapist myself. I will mention it to them. It just made me so sad when he kept saying “Wait till March. It’s over. I’m done.” It didn’t sound like a cry for attention. It sounded like he absolutely made up his mind.