Do you ever just stay up late til like 5am and just struggle to find a reason to not kill yourself? I have done this for the past 2 weeks.
The worst feeling in the world, is being treated like a second option, and feeling unwanted. Being with someone who constantly makes up excuses for not seeing you and then wonders why I get upset so often.
My family disowned me. I have 0 hobbies. 0 friends. I do nothing with my life except go to work and be bored as fuck in my house alone.
I tried to kill myself once, obviously failed. At first I thought, yeah its good that I lived, it means I have a greater purpose. Now I just tell myself “Try harder next time. Finish the job”
My birthday is April 24th. I turn 19 years old. And the only thing I want for that day is to be dead. Why not die on the day I was born right? Makes sense to me eh.
I’M SO FRUSTRATED. UGH.