Do you ever just stay up late til like 5am and just struggle to find a reason to not kill yourself? I have done this for the past 2 weeks.
The worst feeling in the world, is being treated like a second option, and feeling unwanted. Being with someone who constantly makes up excuses for not seeing you and then wonders why I get upset so often.
My family disowned me. I have 0 hobbies. 0 friends. I do nothing with my life except go to work and be bored as fuck in my house alone.
I tried to kill myself once, obviously failed. At first I thought, yeah its good that I lived, it means I have a greater purpose. Now I just tell myself “Try harder next time. Finish the job”
My birthday is April 24th. I turn 19 years old. And the only thing I want for that day is to be dead. Why not die on the day I was born right? Makes sense to me eh.
I’M SO FRUSTRATED. UGH.
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I understand you my birthday passed a while ago. I remember when I use to dread the day im a year older and wish i would just die the age I was.
Every year when my birthday comes up, it’s literally so painful knowing I’m just getting older and dealing with my depression for longer
How long have you been feel this way
About 4 years now
Have you told anybody about hiw your feeling and why did your family disown you.
I have told people, but most people don’t understand and use the “Just cheer up” line on me. My family disowned me because I started becoming independent and when I tried to kill myself they wanted nothing to do with it.
I fear my family will do the same not because me if I try to kill myslef but what will happen in the next ten days .
What will happen in the next ten days?
Im leaving to town I dont want to to eather dose my family so im going to have to loose them to keep my marriage. Even tho I hate my inlelwas he dont wann leave there. I will the rest of my life about how i fwek or thust end it