So I can often relate, I have and continue to struggle with multiple mood disorders and suicidal thoughts/tendencies. What really irritates me, even though I understand, is the constant barrage of teeny boppers who always say the same thing: This is just how life is, this is how it will always be, and theres nothing I can do to change it. I understand the feeling of helplessness very well, I just wish they could understand that all they are doing by surrendering unconditionally to their situation is admitting defeat. Once you stop fighting, the battle may as well be lost. As long as you are still fighting, still trying, there is hope. So never stop fighting, never stop trying, and eventually you WILL make it. You won’t get everything you’ve ever desired, but you can gain quite a lot. It truly does get easier the more experience/wisdom you acquire. So don’t give up, don’t stop fighting, don’t admit defeat, because once you do, the battle is already over. Good luck. I just wanted to leave you all with a little bit of hope before I head off to bed, because it does exist. Keep hope alive, and you will keep YOURSELF, and more important, YOUR SOUL(if you believe in that) alive. Have a good night all, I believe in you.