More and more these days I’m overwhelmed by just an omnipresent sadness that coats everything. Even my stock answers to “how are you doing?” can’t even mask my intense sadness as people realize I really mean the opposite of what I’m saying. Most times during the day I’ll just find myself uncontrollably tearing up. I’m not upset or distraught, more just a resigned moroseness that in itself is defeatist and depressing.
Even my daughter comes and hugs me several times a day just to remind me how much she loves me because she can sense my complete lack of joy.
I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.
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Your daughter needs you. Sadness can be so all encompassing at times but hold out for the little moments of joy, however fleeting they may seem. I know it’s hard when you feel stuck in the sadness but they do exist.