Make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world. I want to feel wanted. I want to feel something other than this dread right now before I start to tear myself apart from the inside out. I’m begging please on my knees. I’m not in a safe place with my head. That part of me is starting to cover me like a cloak. Soon there will be nothing left again. I’m not ok. I keep on spiraling. All these memories of happiness flooded my brain and all at once turned depressive and negative. I’m eating myself alive.
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I want you to know that you have a friend in me. I’m in a pretty bad place myself right now. I’m ready to give up. I can’t even talk about it right now. My heart is so broken because well, yeah. I suck. I am here to keep you company in sadness tonight.
I just want to break down so badily tonight, I’m tearing myself apart. It almost seems on purpose, when I just want it to stop. I’m sorry wintergirl.
I feel the same way …
I want to say we can all make threw this but I want it to end ..
I’m breaking.
Me too. I am sorry you are both hurting too.
I hope we can all ne stronger
Girl…you should try writing dome poetry!
What a great choice of words:
“That part of me is starting to cover me like a cloak.”
“I’m eating myself alive.”
Try poetry!!! You have the gift and it helps very much to release what you are feeling. Release the pressure!!!
I used to write poetry.
I wonder who would hold my hand
This hand only I know
I wonder who would share this pain
This pain I never know
I’ve eaten every dream and face my desperate claws could grasp
And still the emptiness leaves me a monster ravenous
Bea are you ok
You are wanted believe it or not you may feel dread and everything else in this horrible moment but you should feel wanted because some people like to see your posts (I’m going to sound so fucking creepy but fuck it) you post very often so when you don’t post it worries us you may think you’re just ranting away to faceless people online but it’s more than that some people put their heart out there when they try to help others and if one day your posts stopped I would be apart of those who noticed and would quickly assume the worst you may think no one would care but we do you’re apart of this community although it’s suicidal and not the best place at times I want you here because it’s always nice to one of the people who have taken time and tried to help me on my posts is alright or at least alive I hope the day doesn’t come when I log on and find out I’ll never see you comment on my posts again
I really hope I wasn’t too late with that reply
I will be around for a while.
Good to hear, too many are going lately and its really starting to hurt… do stick around
You are wanted Beaubri. We are here and we care.
I feel like I’m unable to explain how I’m feeling anymore.