- Updat how fucked up is florida I went down the street to buy cigerrets and some random peson comes up to wanting to be “freinds and talk” when i kindly told him no im good .he tells my i was driveing i and i saw you walking and stop to say hi do you need a lift I can droo you off i said no now leave while waiting to a red light to cross the street he pulled up and opened his window and told him to fo fuck him slef and leave me alone .
Today I cried and cried all I wanted to do is go to the pool and sit under the water for as long as i can hold my breath i love the water it makes me happy . but I cant mt husband is still alseep and im not allowed to drive . so i need him for it so i had a complet painc attack. My freind called and exploded on her. And almost past on the side walk as i cried . as my hubby nosiy grandmother was pissed on why i was walking up down the street in front of the house . and bitched me out as I wanted to faint . but i smiled and said “im just on the phone with her Granddaughter i just feel like walking.” i wanna die I hate my life . i took a pill to melow me out its working i stop crying . i wanna go drown .