That’s the home I got my heart set on. It’s affordable. It’s luxurious. It’s all Alan.
Side note, is it odd I feel Alan is the real me and my real name is just my “username” for the real world?
I’m trying to build myself up. Trying to stay focused. I’m trying to reach out for help. I see every step as do or die.
The negative backlash from my spouse is maniacal. From bawling she loves me, to fine just go now, to just kill yourself… yet she acknowledges her inconsistency, she still fails to understand how years of being abused has worn me.
So, mentally she’s irrelevant. I need to focus on that. At first I believed this was unattainable without her support. That’s my bad. If I had her support, the ship wouldn’t be sinking.
So, my real nemesis is myself. I’ll let her get to me. I’ll doubt my capabilities. I’ll lack confidence. I’ll stumble I’ll fall. Fuck.
I got an A+ cheer squad though. I WILL DO THIS!
HDS- for you, I know you can’t uproot, you would if you could, I can!
Mindless gamer- for you, it’s not easy to jump into the abyss. I believe in you, do you believe in me?
Money penny- nobody has the right to determine our self worth. Thank you, for believing in my dream.
I could do this all day, Phantom, Whiskered-fish, toTrees, bag, miss spelled ham… more… shit dude, thanks in advance for all the motivation I’m going to ask.
Oh and Cordless… I’m watching you….
(Que evil laugh) muwahahaha!