I’ve come to a conclusion about a lifelong question. Where is all this hardship coming from. I wondered why there is always difficulty, frustration and then the inevitable pain in so many aspects of life. I first thought that world was just bull shit and it was or duty to find and fix all the issues. But recently I have found out that I’m the one with the issues.
Discovering this I wanted to change and be like others, to be normal. I realized that me being against the world was the whole chicken and egg thing. I’m not stuck in this mess because I’m against the world, I’m different and so very fucked up that I was almost destined to get to this point.
And that’s why I don’t want to exist
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You and me both my friend. I have always enjoy seeing how beautiful people heck even just normal looking people enjoying their life. Being happy. Me? I can’t even eat without thinking about my look. My hideousness, but it’s okay I will be gone soon
I’ve been improving lately as I try to be more like other humans. It’s much easier to let the current carry you then wade against the flow and nothing is really lost.
blank-clutter, i like being different, and really who wants to be normal, BORING!
I’m not the good kind of different who is creative or good in their own way. I’m the kind of different that is anti social, can’t think straight or manage my own life
Being different from the people you’re currently around would make most anyone feel like you. I’m leaving and offering others on here, my people, the survivors, to come with me to see the country. I’ve lived life that way before and I was happy for the first time I remembered without trying. I got room if you’d like to escape, to be with people who are just as different as you feel.
Just want to point out that if there are aspects of yourself that you do not want. You can change!
You can change what you believe, change how you act, change the way you think, change the way you behave towards others… so on and so forth at ANY TIME in your life.
So if you are unhappy with certain aspects of your self. Start buy being committed to change those things. There are a lot of good self help books and other resources that can be very helpful.
Believe you can change because you can.