There have been so many times when my brain fails me. If I try to function like a normal human being and actually make a connection with someone, my brain won’t let me. If I try to change my environment or take a step in the right direction, there is blockers again.
Idk of its anxiety or just feeling of powerlessness but I feel trapped within myself. Like there is an internal cage that has always been there in my life but it only gets stronger has it takes control over more and more of my life.
People say there is help out there but I doubt anyone can fix me. I always think the solution is that I have to just be smarter and stronger so I can take life by the horns.
…it hasn’t worked, all these years of trying and I feel I’m more behind than ever. Please someone put me to sleep for good so I don’t fight this hopeless battle
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Counselors or psychiatrists would do more than you think and I think that you should look into that 🙂
I’ve looked into them, most of the time I get too uncomfortable to actually express myself and when I do explain my problem, all they can give is either meds or basic advice. It doesn’t actually change what’s inside my mind.
I feel like what councillors and psychiatrist tell you is similar to what you could read on a psych article giving life tips.
I’m probably wrong though since my perception is skewed
I hate that word…”connection”
I can’t connect with anyone. My brain only seems to see divisions. I always end up pushing people away and making them hate me. I don’t know what it’s like to connect with another human being. I’ve been working through my anxiety and making a lot of progress, but even without me being anxious it’s still difficult for me to connect with people.