Soo… hey everyone!
Been down these past days, but at least I didn’t take any pills today so I’m not falling asleep everywhere.
I want to share some stuff with you guys, if you’d let me.
First, tomorrow would be my dad birthday, hadn’t he died from cancer two years ago (a quickly abstract for those who didn’t read my previous post: I feel responsible for that).
Even though out of my four sisters I only speak to one (and a half. Does text count as talk?), my mother want ALL of her daughters to spend the day together and try and be nice with each other. Wish me good luck because I really don’t feel like talking nice to my sisters, now with how much they hurt me. Anyway, that’s a story for another time, maybe.
Second, and even more important, but I kind of not want to talk about it (maybe it won’t be true if we don’t talk about it!), one of my sisters (the elder, actually) went to the doctor to do a check, and guess what? They found a cyst on her endometrium (is that the world? Please forgive my English! I repeat, I never studied it). They must do a biopsy and then… well… We’ll see. NOTE: Of course I feel like the Universe is laughing at me with this. Even though my sister has suicidal tendencies and hurt herself more times than I can count, this is LOW, Universe. LOW as fu*k.
I’m sleeping on the dining room’s floor and I spend as much time as I can out of my house because my ‘little’ sister (she’s 20) kinds of want to fight ALL THE BLOODY TIME and finds any excuse to do so (specially the one where I don’t have a job and she does and she’s paying the bills… the same bills I paid four years in a row while studying, while she slept all day long, but, hey, she doesn’t remember that, she was, in fact, asleep).
So yeah, my life’s a party.
At least I keep on singing (I don’t think I’ll ever stop doing that. I mean, some days I don’t know WHAT to sing, and somedays I sing really quietly, but I don’t think I have ever stop singing).
SP in by far the best thing that has happened to me in the last two years so THANK YOU ALL.
If anyone wants to talk about anything, and I mean ANYTHING, hit me up.
Love you all.
About my dad’s b-day and my sister health
Soo… hey everyone!