No nightmare, I wasn’t scared at all. Didn’t wake up with fear or a gasp. Instead very relaxed and comforted.
I just dreamed through taking a large bottle of blue unlabeled pills and became very sleepy. My whole Body grew tingly then numb.
After that I woke up within another dream. Of a large empty field, a City in the distance. The sun was shining and the grass was warm and smelled like it was recently mowed. A familiar voice shouted my name before tackling me into a hug. It was my best friend from Britain I have a crush on. Said glad I was finally here. (He is very much alive in the real world and has no Intention of killing himself)
In the dream I didn’t care, he was there and I felt safe. He guided me to a BBQ with all of my other friends waving at me, smiling so bright.
I woke up, smiling and tears rolling down my cheek. Every night since then I wish I could go back… hang out with my friends, have a laugh and chat about silly things.
I’d wish we weren’t seperated by miles and miles of sea and lack of funds and time to visit.
I want to go back and stay there. Forever. Sounds dumb… sounds stupid. But a million times better then this saturated emptiness.
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No way does any of what you have written sound dumb or stupid. I’ve been through all that (not the same as you of course cos I’m me and you’re you). The suicide dreams though, the falling in love with a person across the ocean and the waking up to the stupid, dull life next morning.
It’s like the internet is a blessing and a curse! I have met so many wonderful people online (including my best friend, who is now a real life friend). Then there is the pain of them living miles away. I know we should we grateful for the internet (and I truly am) but it hurts to care for friends and them not be with us, or easy to visit when we want/they want.
It sounds like a really cool dream. I have had dream where everything was sweet and nice and I wish I could just stay in those dreams too.
thanks for sharing