General Protected: Crying in bed by whiskered-fish 4/5/2016 written by whiskered-fish 4/5/2016 This content is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password: Cryingenoughgoodto dietonightworsewriteyesterday 17 comments 0 Email Related posts i hate the guilt 1/25/2021 Terrified 1/24/2021 Just an Update For Ya’ll. 1/24/2021 Not Much Activity on SP These Days 1/24/2021 1/24/2021 relapse 1/24/2021 im out now what 1/24/2021 pros of living vs ending 1/23/2021 Digging Up Memories 1/23/2021 has anyone ever been cured 1/23/2021 17 comments deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 4/5/2016 - 11:33 pm They say sleep is the cousin of death. I understand how you feel. Log in to Reply deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 4/5/2016 - 11:34 pm *hug* Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/5/2016 - 11:46 pm Thanks. Log in to Reply jaybee20 4/5/2016 - 11:42 pm I feel exactly the same whiskers. I’ve been trying to be strong for a while now. I don’t know if I can anymore. All of sudden something creeped over me tonight and I just want to die. I hope you find peace in your sleep. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/5/2016 - 11:45 pm Thanks. I hope you find the same. I just don’t want to dream. All my dreams are nightmares now anyways. I just want to feel like I don’t exist. Log in to Reply jaybee20 4/5/2016 - 11:50 pm Same. I feel like a waste. Why am I even here? I don’t matter, I never mattered I will never matter. I hate myself no I despise who I am. I feel like I don’t want to exist as well. The funny thing is, well I guess it’s not so funny is that I’m completely calm. Usually I’m crying or extremely sad but now..I’m, I feel nothing. You feel like that too? Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/5/2016 - 11:58 pm Well, funny you say that. For me it’s the opposite. I hate myself with an unsettling intensity just about every day, and I’m usually pretty darned calm about it. At most, I’ll be angry. But never deeply sad. Never gushing fountains of tears like I am now. I’m so sorry to hear all that, jaybee. I wish things could be different for you. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/6/2016 - 12:01 am If I go to sleep within the next ten minutes, I should be able to have a dreamless sleep without feeling like crap in the morning. So that’s what I’ll do. Night all. Log in to Reply jaybee20 4/6/2016 - 12:03 am Night Log in to Reply Cordless 4/6/2016 - 12:04 am Sleep is good. If you have dreams tonight, I hope they are sweet ones. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/6/2016 - 10:18 am Update: had nightmares AND woke up feeling like crap. Incredible. Don’t know why I expected any different. Log in to Reply Cordless 4/7/2016 - 12:45 am I’m sorry to hear that. 🙁 Log in to Reply darkwillow 4/7/2016 - 12:03 am I want to hug you so badly Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/7/2016 - 12:07 am I’m very sorry. 🙁 I wish I didn’t make people sad. Log in to Reply darkwillow 4/7/2016 - 12:10 am You don’t make me sad, you just worry me. And i feel like you’re such an amazing person Log in to Reply darkwillow 4/7/2016 - 12:12 am You, chordful, and sportsballs are the only people on here i actually look for posts from and comment on. I think i’ve read basically every post you’ve made on here, since your very first one. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 4/7/2016 - 12:41 am Oh wow. Thanks. Well then I’m sorry I worry you. I wish I could see in me what you do… Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.