Hiya, hope everyone is doing ok today? And if not well, lets hope ur just doing…
I just finished work and after much soul searching have decided there is NOthing I can do about how others perceive me. I spent the last 18 or so hours wondering if my comments here on SP were good enough, closely followed by some things I said to work colleagues, and then the finalie was wondering why my fcuk face alcoholic father hasnt responded to calls or texts from me, after we not spoken for like 4 years. It’s retarded that I hate him yet for the last 39 years I been trying to get his freaking approval!!!
Its exhausting all this damn people pleasing. Even to strangers on the street I want them to think highly of me.
And im starting to think I cant say NO. If someone is asking me to do something im already saying yes before they say when it is!!
Its a serious problem. The people in my life know what im like and im pretty sure they dont expect much, even though my intentions are good, I still hurt people when I commit to a thing and then not show up.
Im just ranting.
Anyway thanks for listening.
I have never admitted that to myself before.
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Sounds like you’re doing the right things even if others, including your father, don’t see it. He is after all…a drunk…so you shouldn’t expect much there unless he someday pulls his head out of the bottle. I wish my 39 year old son would decide he wanted to talk to me…your dad doesn’t know the value of what you offer.
Those other people, well, don’t forget that you can’t please’em all. Do what is best for you, give only as much as you can spare of yourself, your feelings and your love…and most of all, give the best of you to someone who is looking for and happy to return what you offer. 🙂 juss saying.
Thank u whisper. Ur right on with what u say.
Ive decided I have tried as much as I can with him and from now it’s up to him.
I hope ur son decides to talk to u , family can be important, its always a bit of give and take but if u lose soneone with unfinished biz it can really hurt. Thanks for ur words. They helped.
Stop trying to get anyones approval. I have been trying that for years. Never mind what others think or say about you. You are who you are and no-one has the right to change you. About your dad i don’t understand why you are trying to get his approval? After all he is a drunk and haven’t got on touch with you for years. As for your comments their are great and even if they weren’t we don’t judge you. Personally i like it when you comment on my posts. And from personal experience…when i started to say no to people i actually got their respect (at least from some of them)
Thanks gk. Im not sure if I was looking for appeoval with this post. Probably.(im sick! !)
Yeah I decided to say fuck it to the old man last night and told him just how I feel. Anyway thanks for the comment. Hope ur doing ok mate.