I found something yesterday. It is either the start of my redemption or the end of my torment. I decided to make a game. This game will be extremely difficult and almost impossible to win. Yet, I’m satisfied this is the future I’m placing this one last bet on. The rules sound simple: Make my ex who hates me, fall in love with me again within 4 days. However, my depression and apathy have caused her to view me as nothing more than an asshole who enjoys hurting her.
If she truly wanted nothing more to do with me, why would she accept my friend request in the first place? I see two possibilities for that: she wants closure or deep down, she still has some feelings for me she first fell in love with. I know she may have blocked/deleted me already but I’m hoping she will give me this chance. I have struck out 3 times with her due to my poor mental state but this is the last chance; win or lose!
I swear on the scar on my right elbow, the proof of my will and my determination, that I will win or die trying! I will show her I want to hold her, to kiss her, to love her, to comfort her, to make her smile, to make her happy, to just be with her… If at the very end, the only way to make her happy is to leave then so be it. I make sure I can never be tempted to try again. She is the only future I yearn for and if my demons have made that into an illusion so be it! I refuse to back down now… I will rush forward be it to her heart or the ledge. Goddesses of victory and fortune, please watch over me until the very end. For these 4 days, I will either be your avatars’ or just another forsaken.