It’s times like this when my issues bubble and cause so much havoc and yet I can’t say anything about it.
The company I work for does this volunteer thing where we go to schools and promote stuff to kids. I like the concept of it and truly wish I could properly do it without being anxious, paranoid nor get numb, but I don’t have the power to do that.
Can I explain that I’m not fit for what I signed up for… Sigh…
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What kind of things do you promote? I feel like that would greatly affect the outcome.
Technology
Something I do… since actually dealing with people isn’t my thing. I create a character in my head. Then, just portray it. I despise 99% of people yet, I have the best customer feedback. Go figure.
I do something pretty similar to this too.
Sounds freaky, but it works.
It sure sounds like it works. Might have to try it myself.
I don’t know if I have the capacity for this but it’s still interesting to know and try, thanks Alan!
The way I deal with people is I project the image of the person that they know me to be, before I fucked up everything. I’ve gotten so good at it, that when I’m around people, I’ve managed to trick my mind into thinking that I’m not messed up in the head. Then at home, when my parents walk in, it all comes crashing down, and I’m this fucked up SOB. It’s quite tiring.