Today someone was talking about suicide and he said no matter how bad it was it would get better. He then offered an anecdote of how he had a friend who had a friend who wanted to kill herself, and when she called up the friend and told him she wanted to kill herself and listed all the reasons why, he told her she was right but that she should wait a year, and then she did, and within a year her life had turned around, she was happy, etc. I want to know, where do people even come up with this bullsh*t?? do they just assume that people who are suicidal are stupid because we don’t think the way do? As if we can’t see the glaringly obvious logical fallacy in “things have to get better!” According to what law, what force? what proof have you that they will? There are millions of people who are told that and whose lives either stay the same or get worse until they do eventually die, however and whenever that happens. And I have been this way for a year and, news flash, I only want to die more than ever! I told myself to stop and think during moments when I didn’t feel like complete sh*t whether or not I was glad to have been born. There were maybe two and even as I noted it, in those moments, even then I still acknowledged that those two moments were not worth the other 363 days that did nothing to improve my will to live.
I think I’ve really gone off the deep end recently. I sobbed uncontrollably for two hours last night for no reason and have generally done a lot of crying in my day-to-day life, which is very out of character for me. I usually can’t cry much even if I feel like it. Nothing else has changed recently- my mindset is more or less the same it has been for over a year. There’s no cause for this change and I’ve no idea why it’s happening.
I really, really want to kill myself today. I know I shouldn’t because it’s my mother’s birthday and taking away her only kid is cruel even for me. but if I do it tonight, she wouldn’t find out until tomorrow, and it won’t be her birthday then…
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…and this is the reason why i never tell anyone it will get better. i wouldn’t tolerate someone spouting that manure to me, so i don’t do it. empty platitudes are pointless and only serve to make the OTHER person feel better.
no one can read minds, no one can tell the future, and only you know your personal circumstances and problems.
thank you.
It is generally believed that our thinking isn’t normal and so we don’t know what we are talking about. Suicide is not socially acceptable so anyone who wants it must be ill. There is no understanding, and no interest in trying to understand.
Please don’t do anything impulsively because then it is likely to fail and you might have even more problems.
I appreciate it, but it’s not really impulsive if I’ve had a plan and materials for a couple months already.
Sorry, I wasn’t sure.
Of course, one could argue that it is possible it could get bettter – not guaranteed, but possible. How long should a person wait? No way to answer that question.
this is true, but I don’t want to wait. I don’t think I possess the necessary disposition to find and appreciate happiness. I also don’t think I deserve happiness. I just want to die.
“It will get better” is nothing more than fortune-telling. “It CAN get better” is true, even if the probability is really low. I think sometimes people mean the latter but say the former, because they think it sounds more reassuring (and it makes them feel better), when in reality it just sounds fake.
this might be the end so I’d just like to tell everyone how much I’ve appreciated this website. I don’t think I would have lived as long as I have without the feeling of understanding and acceptance I’ve had from you all. hugs and kisses to everyone, if you like that kind of thing. either way, best wishes to everyone. I hope you find everything you look for. I’ll post tomorrow or the next day if I decide not to go through with it.
In reality, any thoughts about suicide and hurting are “medical condition” which can be treated as normal illnesses. Like one of the users had mentioned, Suicide is not socially acceptable. You can argue that you don’t deserve happiness but you can’t say it for sure either. You’re a caring child as I can see you took a step back and thought about your mother’s feelings. Why not you take a step back again? If you hurt yourself in any other day, even if it’s not her birthday, I think she will be very sad as well, to see her only child hurting and yet she couldn’t do anything to help.
I cannot judge that the relationship between your mum and you is good or bad, because I don’t know you personally. Have you tried to talk to her or voice out to someone who is close to you? Future can get better even if the possibility is low. There is still a chance for it to get better.
“In reality, any thoughts about suicide and hurting are “medical condition” which can be treated as normal illnesses.”
in reality, your statement is an opinion and not fact.
Yes, you are correct. It is an opinion and not a fact. Most medical documents stated that as a fact and that’s what my doctor told me as well.