Wow the last time I posted on here I was 14! I’m now 18 and I can’t really say that things are better. Well since 14 I’ve attempted suicide 2 and cut myself on numerous occasions.
Heres my story I’ve been with my current partner for 14 months and it hasn’t been the greatest at all. He severely bashes me and makes me feel like nothing. He never trusts me and always calls me names I don’t feel loved or safe. I live with him at his parents place with his brother and sister also and they never seem to do anything when they hear me scream. I feel so alone and so trapped, I’ve tried leaving on many occasions but when I try he just beats me more and more and locks me up in our room. I don’t know what to do anymore all I ever think about it killing myself and ending this once and for all. He blames me everytime he hurts me saying that it’s my fault, I’m actually starting to believe it is.
I I just need someone to talk to I’m in it on my own.
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It has been a long time. I’m sorry that things are seemingly horrific.
This sounds like a situation that could require Law Enforcement to get involved. Assuming you’re in the US, every state has Domestic Violence laws on the books. We could possibly add False imprisonment, Assault, and other legal issues to the list.
I know it can be difficult sometimes to report but this needs to stop. He needs to be held accountable if he is convicted.
Sweetheart, you know you don’t deserve this. Why would you subject yourself to an abusive relationship like this at such a young age? You should be out having fun! When I was younger, someone said this to me: “Why let someone take up space in your mind? They aren’t even paying rent!” And that really makes sense to me. Do not let this issue or this person take space in your mind. And, if he is abusive, call the police immediately. Please feel free to reach out anytime, you’re not alone.
Rob
I’m in Australia! I think it’s hard for people to understand the circumstances cause he has done a lot of good for me also and I am deeply in love, but leaving as I said isn’t easy I’m trapped. I would never want to hurt him with law enforcement his family is too good to me for me to be able to watch them suffer while their son sits behind bars.
Broken girl I understand. I live south of perth and have seen many horrible abusive relationships, I’ve even stopped and dropped a old friend because he was bashing his girl, it is not cool ever.
You really dont deserve this and dont ever think for a second that you do!
I do as well however understand that it isnt just as easy as walking away, as you said. I think what you need to do is think of a plan and find some people willing to help you get out of there and leave him for good.
Please email me if you need to (in my bio)
Im here to help you
Honey, your life is at stake here. I don’t care if you live in Australia, or the U.S., or wherever. You can’t possibly remain in the position you’re in on account of his family. I suspect you know that already. If he has ever raised a hand to you, you need to get out of that relationship. Period! It will only escalate if you don’t.
Like Mr. Angry was saying, you need to find some people who can help you get away from him. Your parents maybe, or older siblings, or friends? Like everyone is saying, you need to leave the relationship and you probably know that already. But I get that it’s hard to just walk away especially if you’re trying to do it with no support.
As for your fear of hurting his family, they will find out about his actions eventually, it’s just a matter of time. People who abuse women generally don’t stop, he is likely to treat his next girlfriend exactly the same way, and the one after that, and the one after that. By reporting him you could be saving others from becoming his next victim.
I know but im scared of being all alone
I have know friends my dad left when I was 7 and my mum lives an hour away from me and isn’t the kind of mother I can talk to I’m literally all alone my one only BESTFRIEND lives over seas so i feel like I need to stay for the company