For those 4 years I’ve been biding my time, laying around, pushing myself through the dense air with no reason to do so other than just to play the part of my obligation in which I do not want. I wanted to leave 4 years ago.
I only walk through this air hoping it brings me closer to the precipice for my end.
I don’t want to leave a huge mess for someone to clean up or a body for someone to bury, but I want to leave. What am I supposed to do? Live on the obligations of others?
I don’t want to live my life on this planet dedicating myself to some job somewhere just to earn some paper just to keep living in a basic manner.
Selfish or not, I’ve wanted to explore. Not this Planet or this Place but I mean the vast entirety of the Universe I wish I could, I love the Stars.
Never felt like I was human anyways.
The stars are beautiful tonight, don’t you think?
Too bad I’m sitting here, I don’t think I can wait anymore for things to work out.