I didn’t sleep Saturday night. I slept for 3 hours last night. I haven’t slept tonight – it’s 5AM. And I’m so energetic I couldn’t care less about the loss of sleep. I have done so much stuff tonight (this morning I stayed in my room because I couldn’t calm myself down – I was extremely happy and was thinking about all these great ideas to do, and I annoy people and get into arguments over it).
For the past couple hours I’ve been doing a sketch for a painting I’ve put off for almost 2 months – surprisingly I’ve been able to focus on it despite the racing thoughts and inconvenience of the voices. I’m shaking because I have so much energy, and I can’t decide what to do with it right now.
I’ve been talking to Bree while everyone’s been in bed and she can barely keep up with me, so that’s irritating. But other than that, it’s good.
I’m in the mood to write – which is great considering I love writing – but I can’t keep up with how fast I’m thinking about things, and it’s frustrating me to he point where I don’t even want to write anymore. Oh well.
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Though I am SUPER GLAD that you have found inspiration to draw/paint and write again, have you tried sleeping pills? I take some plus a melatoin each night (total of 60 milligrams a night) and I found that it helped my insomnia.
I was on sleeping pills for a year using different doses, but nothing helped. I don’t think is completely down to my insomnia, though.
Last year this happened. I was ridiculously energetic and i went roughly a week and a half on about 7/8 hours in total. I don’t really remember much of it, except being obsessed over this journal (which I’ve lost), causing so many arguments half of my school year hated me, and trying to do too much stuff at once for me to handle. This is probably that again.
I see my psychiatrist tomorrow, so I might ask her what’s wrong.
I hope she can help, because I was went through finals week without 3 hours of sleep and when I finally DID get to sleep, my roommate woke me up because “if I nap then I won’t sleep”….it sucks and I hope you can fall asleep soon (and get the rest you deserve).