Hello. I’ve felt that I have hit a wall recently. I haven’t progressed. I don’t really know where to go? You know I thought I had everything figured out, as far as future plans. Go to college, get a major in mechanical engineering, get a job at a local engineering firm etc. But that doesn’t really feel realistic. I recently had to write a life purpose letter. It was for some project I’m doing and it requires a letter that basically explains my plans for life. And I found it ironic. I thought about all the plans I had and realized none of it really matters. I don’t want that. Considering I think about dying all the time, planning my future is a funny thing. I’m not really sure. Thank you for listening.
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What about it do you find disenchanting? I’m likely the same way, but I have a laundry list of reasons that don’t matter much right now.
Just the futility of it (I think I spelled that right.) If I don’t really plan on going on that longer, then why even make plans.
What if you do go on that far? What if you don’t? If you can look at it as something you wouldn’t be averse to doing, then going that path wouldn’t hurt any more than it would help, given your current circumstances. After all, even suicide is a futile act. It’s something to do in the mean-time, though. College is an interesting experience, no matter the outcome, imo.
J Doe, your plans as wonderful as they are require patients, your not going to see results over night, but slowly, it’s not like cleaning a car for a couple of hours then feeling good about it, perhaps you should clean the car? in between?
I always make future plans so I feel like I have a reason to be here.