In two days, I’m ending things.
I don’t think the advice given here is related to the ban on “Suicide methods help”.
I am not asking how to kill myself.
I am not asking for convincing.
My mind is set and I will do it in two days, no one will stop me but myself.
I should’ve done this earlier, but I was just too all over the place for these last few weeks.
I need some tips on what to start off with, the before-death-preparation.
What should I do?
Write the note?
Should I clean up my room entirely?
Does that mean throwing out EVERYTHING, what do I keep?
I hate this.
I just want to die, not worry for others and how my rooms going to be.
But I am.
Its like, why am I even going to commit suicide if its stressing me out.
Shit I have so much to do…
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Hi. Can we please talk about what’s happening? I’ve been in similar shoes. Note, financial affairs in order, and everything ready to go. By chance, something intervened. While life hasn’t been paradise since then, it has typically been better than it was. A random moment changed the course that I was on.
So, as one of the steps, can we talk about things? Please?
You should do what is going to make you the most comfortable doing in the time you have left.
This is important, too. If you’d like to talk, I’m here. Absent that, it is important to be comfortable.
Hope you find peace GT sorry life has been rough to bring u to this dark place
Also GT, I need to know that you have really planned this out. If you haven’t it is important that you do all the research for success. You could be left off worse than you started, which would be really unfortunate.
This is the truth.
Things could end up worse; sometimes failed attempts leave someone permanently disfigured or permanently helpless for the rest of their lives.
It might be best not to take that chance.
Totally agree. Do it once!
Lastly, I am going to say to please not do this. Give yourself some breathing room. I’m saying this because I am selfish and I have to. Not because I am thinking of your current pain but I am thinking of my pain if you are successful, which his selfish and wrong. But someone told me the other day that if this site is anything it is honest. We are honest with each other, even if that honesty hurts.
I can’t care less.
Sigh.
I dunno what to start with.
My room is a mess, and I am supposed to get things done.
do what is going to make your last days feel good or comfortable. Don’t worry about what others will think after you are gone. That is pointless. They are going to think what they think there is nothing you can do about it.
If there’s nothing after death, then there’s no reason to clean up any mess or burn the secrets in your journals or hide anything that you think will make them hate you. Because your dead. Hate has no sting when you no longer exist. Corpses don’t care what we think of them.
Note: I don’t believe that death is a cessation of existence. I believe that there’s a soul, although I’m on the fence on whether or not our souls will care that our families/friends will hate us or be saddened by our death. But even if I’m right about souls and afterlives, I still believe honesty to be the best policy. You shouldn’t feel the need to hide anything, GT.
Man
Leave it all there in a mess. When you pass you won’t be there to see nothing. Focus on you!!!
And good luck for you during suicide and I am sorry life was a ***** to you. Hope you find peace
(And come back to tell us how it is after death…if possible!) 🙂
We want to go where you are going man…
I’d just leave the mess, why does it matter? Unless keeping it tidy may have some meaning (bad words sorry) to you. Are you sure you need to die now? 🙁
If you are going to die, have you researched first? That is crucial!!! CRUCIAL
It might be worth reconsidering…But, if not…How do you plan to die?
if you’re serious, why not leave a note? where’s the harm in that? if it offers even a fraction of peace to someone you know, that can’t be a bad thing. isn’t that what you wanted in this life, some measure of peace?
Its like I can’t die unless my room is PERFECTLY cleaned.
I have a problem with perfection.
I can’t just die without making sure things are cleaned and perfected. Then I can have peace of mind and end it.
Maybe it’s deeper than that. With my first attempt I made sure my room was a little neat not spotless. I wrote a note to my family each one (4). Then I attempted and failed. Failing can make things a lot worst than they already are or it can change your mindset and perception of your life. Whatever you choose I pray that your soul finds peace and that you are able to kick depressions ass. That goes for everyone on this site.
I know that tomorrow is your planned day but please dont do this. I wont be able to live with myself knowing i couldve sent a message to you showing that i care. I know this was posted on the 3rd but who knows? You could be refreshing the page to see if anybody new commented and cared. Please GTsuicide_6.. if u see this please reply. Please. Please. Please.
Where u are is already the 6th… God im such a failure
She hasn’t answered me all day.. I just wasn’t able to help her enough.. I didn’t know what to do and now, I’m not even sure what happens now… 🙁 I miss her..