Just a post to say thank you to the awesome dudes/girls who replied to my first post and helped me out. I am truly grateful that you cared enough to reply and offer me support and sympathy. And especially for not preaching the feel good bullshit that is on 99% of help sites online.
I kind of feel as if I’ve hit a point in life, as if I am waking up to who I really am. It is terrifying but I have to be me. No matter how I am on the outside, my soul and brain are still me. It’s time for me to ditch the fake me, who has brought me nothing but shame, unhappiness and self-loathing.
My life has been mostly shit for ages but truly “to hell an back” over the past 18 months. Yet, some things have happened (or tormented me with the hope) that have been like the highest high – a promise of true happiness and freedom. Destroyed cruelly by life but somehow, it has awoken the true me. It is as if I went through trial by fire and the fire burned away the fakeness.
Two tips for people going through hell. 1) Breathe. 2) Love your pets.