General Protected: Well by Dungeon 4/10/2016 written by Dungeon 4/10/2016 This content is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password: cleancontinuehorribleno onepainfulpretendstartyourself 11 comments 0 Email Related posts I hope you’re alright.. 12/2/2021 Opening 12/2/2021 My Depression remains terminal – I wish there... 12/1/2021 I hate being right 12/1/2021 Path of self destruction 12/1/2021 I work outdoors, and today was 12/1/2021 Addiction 12/1/2021 horror versus terror 11/30/2021 My boyfriend killed himself 11/30/2021 Considering Euthanasia 11/30/2021 11 comments badcat 4/10/2016 - 10:08 pm Wow, I feel the exact same way… Only I don’t really pretend unless I’m in a situation where I would look like a total nutcase if I didn’t. I wish I could pretend so that I didn’t get the look of pity all the time, and the guilt of people worrying. I’m just way to honest. Log in to Reply Dungeon 4/10/2016 - 10:11 pm I try to be as honest as possible, but with things like this I feel it’s better I don’t say the whole truth. Log in to Reply badcat 4/10/2016 - 11:16 pm I understand! In many cases it is. I’ve been very lucky that it hasn’t bitten me in the ass yet. Log in to Reply distant.road 4/10/2016 - 10:10 pm I think that seeing a therapist is a good move. It could help. There’s no reason to kill yourself… There is a reason for your existence. Log in to Reply Dungeon 4/10/2016 - 10:27 pm I appreciate the kind words and I wish I felt the same for those around me, but some people, such as myself, find no comfort, solitude, or enjoyment with being alive. Now maybe for some they will find what they are searching for down the road, but for me, I don’t really want to. I really wish there is no one like me, but I’ve seen enough to know that there was. Log in to Reply distant.road 4/10/2016 - 10:33 pm You’re investing in yourself. Seeing a therapist can take a lot of courage. Perhaps, over time, you’ll see some opportunities that you aren’t seeing right now. There are a lot of people struggling out there. Struggling doesn’t mean you have to give up. Please don’t. Log in to Reply Dungeon 4/10/2016 - 10:44 pm I’ve had more therapists than the fingers on my hands, trust me I’ve tried to see a future. They have all told me relatively the same things. This isn’t me giving up, this is me accepting myself. I’m doing this so the future me doesn’t run into that wall 10-20-30 years later where I realize that I shouldn’t have continued. Sure maybe I’ll be one of those miracle cases you see in magazines, but I believe with my entirety it is better to go off with my sanity then take the chance to become worse off then being dead. Log in to Reply distant.road 4/10/2016 - 10:49 pm I’ve had a ton of therapists. Sometimes it takes a while to find one that’s on the same page. It doesn’t necessarily reflect anything on you. They’re human. You’re human. It could take some time to click. I am glad to see thst you’re giving therapy another chance. Give it time for both of you to develop a rapport. Log in to Reply Dungeon 4/10/2016 - 10:50 pm True, only time will tell. Log in to Reply badcat 4/10/2016 - 11:18 pm Dungeon, so much of what you say resonates with me! Log in to Reply Dungeon 4/11/2016 - 12:21 am @badcat a double edged sword, at one end its nice being able to relate, on the other side It saddens me to understand the pain you go through. I really wish no one felt like this. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.